TOO YOUNG??TOO OLD??

Mum: Now, don't get married early okay?

Me: But why?
       Ma, you also get married at 23 years old right?I'm 22 years old already..

Mum: You should settle down first..Have a good job..feed Ma and Pa,
           your siblings..
           Back then, that's the trend..all of people need to get married as early as they
           can.
           But, nowadays, things seems to be different...
           I don't want you to regret it later..
           You're way too young to be married..

Me: Okay, Ma..No worries..I will get married 15 years later..( at 37 years old)

Mum: woah? 37??it's way too old dear..27-29 years old should be fine..
          but now, you must concentrate on your studies first..

Me: Btw, almost all of my friends are married already..
       and some of them even got 2 kids already..
       Isn't it great?

Mum: oh no..don't even think of having a child when
          you're still acting like a baby..

Me: How about BOYFRIEND?

Mum: I said NO!

Well..that's it..I think I will never be allowed to have a boyfriend until I am 30 years old...Yeah, I'm giving a lot of thought about this..and I made up my mind not to have a boyfriend until I'm 30 years old..
Hmn..to be honest, I actually had been thinking a lot about marriage..that's happened when my friends told me they're getting married..or..when they were pregnant and about to gave birth..peer pressure I guess..
I wonder how is it feels to be someone wife, to be a mother..
But, like what my mum said, she don't want me to regret it later..Her words got a very deep meaning..my point, I will do as my mum said because I don't want to regret it later when it's too late..

But, a few days later..
I overheard my mum's conversation with my oldest sister..FYI, she's turning 31 years old..

Mum: You got boyfriend already?

My sister: NO..I'm not dating anyone..

Mum: Just tell me the truth..I know, you're seeing someone right?

My sister: Ma!!**she sounds annoyed**

Mum: Okay- okay..But if you're seeing someone, just let me know..
          If you're still single, then, Ma is worried..
          You're 30 years old..
           you're way too old already to be married..

My sister: Nothing to be worried, Ma..
               age is just a numbers..
               You're making me stressed here...


Then.. they become silent and I can felt the tension in the air..I can imagine how's my sister felt right now..
she must be super tense since she's the oldest child in my family..but, what can be done? She's a workaholic..
I'm glad to be TOO YOUNG..no need to be pushed like my sister..hahaha

My first LoVe..

I still remember back then, when I was 15 years old..I started to watch a Korean drama..
It's started with this...

and then, after that...with this..

 later..

 next..

 this is when I started to getting involved with K-POP seriously...
There are still many drama's but I choose the best one only to be published..It's too much..
Now,

also,

and this,

lead to this,

and the latest one is....

It's not that I didn't support Malaysian product, I do watch a bit of Malaysian drama..but...
the thing is I really- really fall in love with their drama..the way of their story line..it's just so creative..and fun to be watched..

My K-POP FEVER is not only limited into their drama's but also their songs...I will blog about it soon,K?
See you!

Me, My self and I

Just came back from groceries shopping with my brother just now..I find it hard to spent my time together with my brother even we've been living under the same roof..yeah, it's probably due to all of the assignments..we've been so busy in our own world..By the way, it's good to go out sometimes..to be tanned by the hot sun (yes, we were walking to the nearest mall which takes a 15 minutes journey)..It's not that I purposely tanned myself, it's just my umbrella has been broken since last week..mind you, it was seriously hot!!huhu..But, it's good to be outside..rather than being locked in my super small room and stressing my self over the assignment..I got a good news! I had finished 1 of the assignment so now, I only have 3 more assignment to be done..means that I need to pulled an all niter again today..



okay, stop talking about the assignment stuff.. 



Now, my brother and his friends ( all the boy house mate) goes out somewhere..I think they're going to jogging..and here am I..alone...It's not that THEY don't want to bring me along, but I am the one who refuse to be with them all..I don't want to look stupid later because I knew that I cannot digest or join their discussion..haish..Seriously, feels so empty...have you ever feel like this before? or is it just me that is weirdo?
hmn..never mind..at least I didn't do something stupid to fill this emptiness right?? began missing my family right now..my dad's temper, my mum's who always nagging me, my argument with my younger sister, my bedroom and especially my mum home cooked meals that I used to ignore when I'm at home..but now..I'm regretting it all..I'm tired of eating outside..I'm sick of the "too much salt and MSG"..If I come back home later, I will appreciated it..now, I know what's the meaning of LOVE..I miss them so badly that I finally understands how is it feel to be away from your beloved family and I think this feeling is LOVE..But back to reality, I'm alone..I hope later, I will get used to this situation..now, I might looked like a cry baby but I know that someday, I will be a strong matured woman..

There's A Reason

For every pain, that we must bear,
For every burden, every care,

THERE'S A REASON.

For every grief, that bows the heart,
For every tear- drop that is shed,

THERE'S A REASON.

For every hurt, for every plight,
For every lonely, pain -racked night,

THERE'S A REASON.

But if we trust God, as we should,
It all will work out for our own good,

HE KNOWS THE REASON.

I'm addicted to "LOVE, LOVE, LOVE"

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE...

Both of this songs shared the same title..

but it's totally had a different meanings..

My point, I just can't get it out of my head..it's been lingering on my mind since last year..I'm pretty sure that I am addicted to this both of this songs..

 

Your love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction

a feeling so extreme

I lost my appetite to eat, and I barely get to sleep

Cause you're even in my dreams

And I thought that I was strong but I knew that all along, 

This was out of my control

So I fell into your hands, and I don't know where we'll land,

I'm going with the flow

Love, Love, Love, Love

 

 

I was so happy because I loved you like crazy
I let go of you, who gave me memory of love.

Good bye, my love love love
Fare well, my love love love
Even though my filling up tears soak my whole body,
Now good bye good bye good bye
Please be happy after leaving me
Step by step, you are getting far away from me

I silently pour myself a glass
Struggling to hold it up, I let out a sigh
I take the glass
Together, I swallow the tears that
I've been holding back again and again
thinking of you

Music = Muse

So music is my muse. Somehow, it is like metaphorically a drug. It can make you happy, sad, high, mad, sometimes take a guitar and smash it to the ground but still you smile, haha. I cannot really detailed and precised on words, but it makes me happy. Thus, music is my muse.

Resolutions again??

I'm pulling an all niter to finish off all of my assignment..but after been struggling for almost 12 hours..I still cannot finish it..I think it's due to my habit..procrastinate..I should do all of this assignment since last week and after been lazying for almost 1 week, I've just realize that  I've got lots things to be done..oh no..why I keep doing things last minute?

If only I do it last week, I should be enjoying my Chinese New Year break right now..My college gave us 1 week holiday because of Chinese New Year but me myself been busying my self with assignment while my other friends would be enjoying their holiday now..

I think I should discipline my self more and say a big no..no..to:

1) Face book
2) Twitter
3) Games
4) Excessive sleep
5) Excessive laziness

I think I spent to much time to go on9..I hope I can cut it off from 12 hours to only 3 hours per day..

 It's just  a month since the 2011 approaching, but seems like I already forgetting my new year's resolution..
No!! I should throw away all of this bad habit and starting a new life as a new person..
I cannot waste my parents money for sending me here...I should get a good grades to make my parents happy..Well, it's never too late right?
I should keep this in mind!!
yes!!I can do it!!

‘When we are no longer able to change a situation – we are challenged to change ourselves.’ Viktor Frankl