Trust HIM

Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help me to trust You and in Your will for me. I am really having a hard time in surrendering everything because I wanted to be in control in some areas of my life.
But deep in my heart I know that only You, can control everything, and set everything right. Please help me to learn to let go of things and let You handle all things that I struggle with and worry about.
Please help me to remember how You have always taken care of my concerns in its proper time and place.
Please help me to understand things beyond my knowledge for I know it is only in You
where I can find peace and understanding.
This I seek and pray for in Jesus Mighty name…Amen.

Lift me up

This is what I always do.When I'm down and I almost give up(I won't),I will look up for this kind of picture with message like this. I do pray and I do looked at this picture.

It is so pretty isn't it?

The hormones

One moment I will feel so sad.Later,I will feel happy.Then,sad again.
I don't know.Perhaps this is just my hormones trying to play with me.It's really hard to control but I'm trying my best.

Today,like usual.Industrial training,until August.I don't know how should I put my words but for almost 3 weeks I've been doing my industrial training,it's just okay.My supervisor do gave me way too much works but nevermind because I know it's for my own good later.

I just can wait to be a working women so that I can earn money. I need it to support my family and I ;( and I know it depends on luck. If Lord give me work,I will accept it with an open heart.

Yesterday and today #2

Yesterday: Holy Thursday

Today: Good Friday

Have a blessed Good Friday everyone who celebrate Easter  today. I'm pretty sad because I cannot participate in it actively for the past 2 years. Forgive me Lord.


"We adore you, O Christ, and we praise you, because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world."

Stop abortion

I wonder why there's some women's out there who choose to abort their unborn baby when they are some women's who are willing to ignore their ownself in order to save the lives of their unborn babies. Taking an example, Jennifer Lake who sacrificed herself for the love of his son. Her brave decision that delivered a clear message on how a mother's love. I hope that women who's consideing on going to an abortion should read her story. Please avoid abortion. There are many peoples out there who're trying to save their unborn baby and why opt for abortion?Please stop.

Read her amazing story *here*

Souce: Jenni's Journey Facebook

This is another an eye- opener for me on how great is our God, the miracle that had happened to this family. Miracle mum brings premature baby son back to life with two hours of loving cuddles after doctors pronounce him dead

No matter how hard the trial, I should face it with the strength from God

*This post going to be a very SENSITIVE post. So like it or not, you have the right to NOT read it*

My grandparents( mum side) is both a Catholic. My grandma is grown up in a Catholic whereby my grandfather is used to be a Muslim but then he converted to a Catholic. Under some circumstances, he's back to his original religion after being a Catholic for almost 20 years.

My grandparents( dad side) is both raised in a Catholic family but it's just that they're not living as a Catholic. They tend to have their own beliefs and their own customs from the past generation. 

When I'm small, I realised how my parents didn't really making God as their priority. They do pray but not as often as it should be. My dad is busy with his work so the time he spent in the church is really limited. My siblings and I can choose whether we want to go to church or not but as we grew older, my parents always reminded us about Him.Maybe, it's because of their past environment that my parents grew up with, become a great influenced for them to not become a good Catholic BUT it is all in the past.

Now, my parents changed. So, do my siblings and I. This is all thanks to the trials and temptations that we've faced for this past few years. The pain is TOO great that we don't know what we should do and we ended up believing that God will always be by our side. Turned out, it is true. My family and I managed to face it all with the strength from Him. All he want is the FAITH. The simple faith.

Still, there are the problems and seems like it's even painful and greater than it was before but it's okay because we knew that God is working on something for us. At least, we know that God is going to be with us. 

I believe that God is always hearing my family and I prayers. Maybe the prayers will not gonna be answered on that moment but just wait because God know the reason why did he do that. Just have faith in Him.

My family and I are now working hard to be a good Catholic. To be a good children for Him. To be a better and holy person. 

Lord, have mercy on us.

Amen.

 

My faith

I'm going to be more faithful.
Thank you, Lord, St. Therese, Mother Mary and the Holy Spirit for the prayer answered.
I'm grateful to received it even-though I'm not worth it.
Thanks for making me believe that everything I ask, I should believe that I'm going to receive.
I'm sorry for being to thoughtless all this time.
Just realize that all you want is the faith.
To believe in Him no matter how hard life is treating me.
To trust Him and to keep praying even-though I don't feel like one.
To give it all to Him and let Him take care of it for me.
The faith that He always want from His child.

Bad or Good situations, it's a blessing from Him~

Lent seasons, I think is the most challenging period for me. I don't know if it only me I do find it challenging. The temptations are 2 times tempting so I have to be strong to resist it all.

Last night, I have been scolding someone because she didn't co- operate with me. I'm almost explode but I don't and I think I still show the sign of anger to that person. After what happened, I began to regret it. It's lent but I cannot even holding the anger for the sake of this lent season. Realize it now and am not going to let it happen any more.

FYI, last night also something good happened. My bro, friend and I used to buy snacks, drinks, chicken skewers and the various  kind of fritters  at this one market that is only open on Thursday until Saturday from 14:00 until 22:30. So last night we went to this one stall. They sell the most delicious snacks and cakes too. I said I want to buy that is worth MYR 2.00 and I can get 6 pieces of them. Suddenly, the auntie putting all the things left in the containers to my plastics and said that the rest is free. She's been giving the other leftover for the different kind of cakes too and it's worth more that MYR 10.00 o_O. That was really kind of her. She even asked my friend who'd just arrive at her stall( he's on his way to buy some too) and the auntie said "you want it?I give it for free" and my friend said "sure!". We're so full that we cannot finished it all and now it was in the fridge. The auntie is so nice.

It's feels so good and I think it's a blessings from God. The auntie like having this instinct that my friends and I are coming from another state and maybe she think we're pitiful too. I'm not sure but I'm really grateful and I hope she will be blessed for doing a good deeds. I hope her business will go well too. May God bless her and her family. Amen.

It is good to serve God in darkness and trial! We have only this life to live by faith. ~ St. Therese

What am I Giving Up For Lent?

Giving up. Giving Down. Giving in. http://www.catholic.org/clife/lent/content.php?s=2

I'm going to make the lenten sacrificies.

I'm Reading The Holy Bible Today...

and I found some interesting yet uplifting verse on Mat 6:25-34


I read through the verse and jot it down. I have this kind of book or diary where I will write the verse that I find very interesting or really suitable as a motivation when I'm really down. So, after reading it, I look the past pages and I found the same verse but it's only on the word 34 which is said " So, do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."

I'm really shocked as I've just read and wrote it down just now and at this moment I found the same verse but it's been written for the past 6 years. I've been writting it since I'm still in high school and now I'm writing it again when I'm in Collge.Yes, I've been using the same book for 6 years.

I don't know how to describe this feeling but all I can tell is that I felt there's something special about this verse and I too feeling so warm inside my heart.

Lord, Mother Mary, St. Therese, All the Saints and my guardian angel, thanks. I'm really grateful.

Thank You...

Lord, for all the blessings I've received, I'm really grateful.

Most of my words are necessary

All too often I speak simply to fill the space with sound, because I felt too uncomfortable with the silence. But this silence is golden. Only in silence you can hear God speak to you. Only in silence can a real prayer, a heart prayer be born. Next time you start chattering, stop and feel into the silence, feel its shape, its texture, and then slowly and silently say only what really has to be said.

Have A Blessed Easter

God our Father, by raising Christ your Son you conquered the power of death and opened for us the way to eternal life. Let our celebration today raise us up and renew our lives by the Spirit that is within us. Grant this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Christ is Risen indeed from the dead. Amen

Learning To Let Go

Am stressed up because I need to give up upon the most important thing in my life. I hate myself for the fact that I cannot do anything and all I need is just to watch the situations. I'm frustrated, confused, hopeless and almost drown in my own world. There are times when I think that life's is just not fair. But there are times where I think my life is much better compare to others. But as time goes by, I started to realize how selfish I am. Yes, I want to control so everything happens in just the way I want it. The end of the day, I realize that I control nothing because it's all in God's hands, has always been and will always be. So, I try my best to do what I can and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

Happy Good Friday to everyone! May you always remember to be thankful, kind, and faithful to the Lord. Stay blessed!

Decision is Only Wishful Thinking Until You Take That First Irreversible Step

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for me myself, is one of those times.

God still sits on the throne. You may be going through a tough time right now but God is getting ready to bless you in a way that only He can. Keep the faith. prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards. Let's continue to pray for one another

Discrimination?

Yes, discrimination. I've been banned Malay songs in my life?
Why? The lyrics, the melody really- really didn't suit me..
Ask my family or my friends whether I've ever heard Malay songs
Check my lappy if you could find any...

But today, everything changed. I've been checking through my friends thumb drive and I happen to notice this song and I tried to listen to it and now I've been listening to it over and over again. This song remind me of my discrimination to a Malay song.

I don't know what so special about this song but it clearly makes my heart goes warmer each time I listen to it. So here it is...

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Story Of A Soul

This is her Autobiography. I've read it and her story once again touched me. It is about the humble, simple and joyful acknowledgment of God's mercy and love in St. Therese's own uncomplicated life. Read it guys and I bet you wont stop reading.

Saint Therese@ The Little Flower

I bet everyone of us already know her. Of course you all know her. But I still want to write about her today.


She described her life as a "little way of spiritual childhood." She lived each day with an unshakable confidence in God's love. "What matters in life," she wrote, "is not great deeds, but great love." Therese lived and taught a spirituality of attending to everyone and everything well and with love. She believed that just as a child becomes enamored with what is before her, we should also have a childlike focus and totally attentive love. Therese's spirituality is of doing the ordinary, with extraordinary love.

Therese saw the seasons as reflecting the seasons of God's love affair with us.  She loved flowers and saw herself as the "little flower of Jesus," who gave glory to God by just being her beautiful little self among all the other flowers in God's garden. Because of this beautiful analogy, the title "little flower" remained with St. Therese.

"My mission - to make God loved - will begin after my death," she said. "I will spend my heaven doing good on earth. I will let fall a shower of roses."

True enough. If you have tried her novena, you will felt something. Me, myself, is not a religious catholic, but there are times when things were unbearable, you will tried to pray. St. Therese had shower her roses in me. It's really hard to describe here, but once you experience it, you'll knew it. When your prayer still haven't been answer, but still you have strength in your heart, the hope that keep you going. I even start to appreciate every single thing around me. Thanks St. Therese for showering me with your roses.