I'm Fat and I know It.

Went to work like usual when someone told me that I'm getting fatter. It's not that I cannot accept that I'm fat, I'm trying my best. I'm trying my best to do everything. It makes my feel so down. I know I shouldn't be. After all, it's my body anyway. I cannot asks people to shut their mouth. It's their mouth anyway. What I can do is to just keep trying to lose weight and maintain a healthy life style.

This is my weight progress.

On November 2015, my weight is 39KG this is due to the DKA (diabetic ketoacidosis).

After getting treated for almost 4 months, now, I weighted around 60KG. 

My BMI is 24.0. It still in the normal range but one step closer to being overweight. 

My plan now is to loss my weight first and then to toned up my body. I also attending the MMA and Muay Thai class for fitness purposes.

I'll be back with my weight loss journey sometime later.

See ya.

"NO PAIN, NO GAIN".

 

  

I Can Wait Forever-Air Supply (lyrics)

Been playing this song over and over again. Am I waiting for my boyfriend? No, I don't have one and I planned to not to pressure myself upon this marriage issues. I do want to love and be loved but I think it was too risky to hurt myself at the end of the day so I don't want to think about love at this moment. My focus now is more to myself, my diabetes and hyperthyroid, my parents, my siblings and also my pets which consist of lots of fishes and adopted kitty as well as the turtles.



Enjoy the songs and I hope it will haunt you as well.



Take care.

Admitted to the hospital for 2 months

 Who cares? If I'm admitted for how many months, no one cares but who cares? I still want to share my experience.

First I'm admitted because of dKa( Diabetesketoneacidosis), due to uncontrolled BG. Then, they( the doctors) plan to get me a total thyroidectormy but after been admitted for 2 months, my TSH is still high it was cancelled again. I wondered is it because of my medication dosage or what but it seems like it really hard to control.

Will get back to you.