Happiness

Happiness is when I’m so hungry but when I check my drawer there is no food left. What’s left is only a cream cracker plastic because I’m too lazy to throw it away and I think it’s been 2 weeks since I ate it. I want to throw it away but then when I grab the plastic there is a piece left. Yes!

Happiness is when I’m able to help strangers. I tried my best to help them even though I’m so busy with my work.

Happiness is when a guy from my workplace asked for my number. I gave to him. He message me right away. What a gentlemen he is. I found it rare to meet a real gentleman nowadays. The guy who is honest like this caught my attention. I still remember last month I gave a hint to a guy that I liked him. He didn’t do anything. I’m so pissed off. If he doesn’t want me, just say it to my face. Don’t give me hope.

Happiness is when my colleague willing to walked so that they could visit me at my cubic.

Kind Hearted People

Been pretty busy. I never thought working as a Safety and health personnel could be this tough.
Lately my task is to manage the fire extinguisher  where by I have to do inspection on it. Tagging it. For the 3 plants.

Went to the store to change the empty fire extinguisher and change to the new one.

The workers already wrapped the 29 fire extinguisher on the wood plank.

So imagine. I have to walk bringing maximum 2 fire extinguisher at one time. That could be 20KG.

Then the staff look at me and ask if they could help me. Thank God I'm able to finish it up.

Never thought those people still exist.

Life as a parasites

I thought I knew so much about life. It's twists and turns but I'm wrong. I hate it when nothing ever going out my plan. 

My dream is to finish study, get a job, save a lotsa moolah and to be able to support my family financially.

I do finish my study but I still cannot get my certificate due to some problems with my college. How am I going to get a job without a certificate of my Diploma? How am I going to support my family when I cannot even support myself. Feels like a parasites in my parents house. Not being able to contribute anything, instead I'm the one who's sucking everything in my surrounding.

Jobless. Hopeless. Depressed.

Some said "be strong", "cheer up", etc. but how am I gonna do that in this state?

One thing I'm gonna do is to simply grateful for every single day that I've been through and for every breath I take because somewhere there's someone who fighting to be alive.

The Simple Gesture that...

...makes my heart melt.

Last night, after my night class ended, my classmate that used to send me back home is going home early and I have no choice but to ride my classmate( Roy) car. I've been rarely riding his car. They're 4 of us in the car and I am the only female. Then, when we reached my house, Roy suddenly rushed to open my door. I said it's okay but he insisted to do so. Actually, the door is broken and cannot be open from the inside but still there are another exit. Yet, he still offering himself to open the car's door.

He's younger than me but he is so matured. Isn't he so gentleman? No one ever do that to me. Even the guy that used to liked me before. His name is Jasni. He once fetch me from my house to the workplace where I used to work as a part timer. He didn't even bother to open the car's door for me. He is 28 years old that time.

See? Big difference right?

I think if I'm going to have a future boyfriend @ husband, I want someone that has Roy's quality too. As long as he is matured and can use think based on his common sense, that should be fine.

p/s Mentally and physically tired but I will still have a hectic week ahead. Good Mornight!

Imma going back home on Sunday

Fifth semester finally over with the last paper. One more semester + practical to go. 


Seems like everything happens so fast.


Now, I'm only one step closer for my graduation day but still I have so many things to be done.


Today's paper which is the Safety Training is just so and so. I didn't managed to answer the questions especially the essay. I don't know and I don't care because I'm so looking forward for my holiday. 


Gonna spent the whole month with my family. Thinking to add 2 weeks on my own holidays so that I can spent my CNY with my family. 


Just wait and see. 

I Wonder How is it FEELS like to...

....have a cousin/s. I do have cousins but we're living miles away. Also, because the family conflicts,I'll never get to know them. I wonder what the difference when you have a cousin.Is it the same relationship you have with your best friend or was there any border between you and your cousin?I wonder.

Am Bored

 I know, I should start doing my revision right now since it's a study week this week but seems like I still don't have the urge to do so. Actually, Imma start doing my revision today but I ended up doing a spring cleaning for my room and the moment I want to study, I'm feeling tired already.  So, I think I'm going to start tomorrow. No procrastination.

I ended up browsing though this quiz and I did it just for fun before Imma off to bed. Can you spot the "blue words?" I think it's reflects on myself a bit ;)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

 

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

 

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

 

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

 

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

 

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

 

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

 

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

 

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

It's Your Choice

 I am who I am and I can't stop being me. So like me, love me or hate me, the choice really is yours. 

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Sunset@Sunrise

I want to go to beach like so badly now....

Random Day

By all means marry; if you get a good wife, you'll be happy; if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.
Socrates

Touched it but Let It Go If Don't Want To Buy it

 Going to Popular Bookstores today after the mass. Not to buy a books but just to doing a free reading..hehe.. isn't it exciting? I know POPULAR BOOKSTORE is not a library but I cannot help it since I don't even know where is the library here in Miri..Somehow, still I can read all of the new magazines without even need to buy it, that's what matter the most, right? Money was so tight..hmn..
Okay, after I finished reading all of the magazines, I go to the novel sections, and then, I spotted the sections for the Cecilia Ahern and Jodi Picoult novels....Oh no..Its really breaks my heart when I just can touch and read a bit but I cannot buy and bring it home. Of course I can read all the novels there but it sure going to take me 3 days to finish up reading all of the novels. Here's the list of novels that I'm seriously aiming for.Hope I have enough money to buy all of these novels. Maybe I should wait until I have a stable job so that I can have my own library.*sigh* 

Money is a good servant but not a good master

YOU’LL ONLY LIVE ONCE

Have you ever look at the sky during the nights and count the star?

Have you ever look deeper into the lake and notice those small creatures who swimming freely?

Have you ever called your family in the middle of the night and they will always there even if we’re living in a different country?

Have you ever grateful for the jokes that make us laugh when we sometimes forgot how to due to the hectic live?

Have you ever been grateful for all of the things that we’ve already owned when others might never have a chance to have it?

Have you ever been grateful for the food that you eat when you’ll never realize that someone outside there haven’t had their dinner, lunch or even breakfast?

Have you ever been grateful for the comfy pillow and bed to be lied on when we tired and want to sleep while there are someone outside there don’t even have a room to be sleeping in?

Have you ever worked hard in yours studies and then pass the exam with flying colors?

The satisfaction of our own sweat makes it even worth

Our life is too precious since we’ve only live once

Sometimes, even the short comforting words is good enough to make me feels emotional and make me realize that there will always be someone by our side

Sometimes, even the sounds of the birds chirping is the pleasant sounds to be heard every morning

Sometimes, when I can deal all of the problems its feels good enough until I realize that things actually happens for a reasons

The love that I shared with God, my family and friends are too much precious to me that I hope that nothing would happens so that nothing will change

Somehow, we’re given the chance

The chance to treasure, enjoy and live our life to the fullest

The time is ticking and we should be grateful for everything while we could still feels it

APPRECIATION is needed here...

When...Who...

Tomorrow is VALENTINE'S DAY....
and I'm not gonna celebrating it since I'm S.I.N.G.L.E okay?
I am always wondering..
When will I'll be celebrating it with someone that I really- really fall in love with..
I wonder who even is he? 
Where did he come from?
What did he do..Working or studying?
I wonder who will be my first love?


They said L.O.V.E happens when you're least expecting it?
Is it true enough?
I wonder how is it feels to be in love..how is it feel to have someone to take care of..to have someone to shared your love with...


They said L.O.V.E is blind?
How would I know since I never fall in L.O.V.E


But now..I got my family and friends now...and I also have my own responsibility as a daughter, sister, students and etc...I think I should learn to L.O.V.E myself, my family, my friends and Jesus first before I can love someone....

p/s see?I'll always worried about what will happen tomorrow..should be reading my WHAT WILL HAPPEN TOMORROW post again..

THIS CAN WAIT!