I'm not jobless anymore..

..because I'm working now.
I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm working at one of the fast food chain.
It's tiring but I've learnt a lot.
I never knew that it would be tiring but I guess nothing comes easy in life especially when finding money.
Well, let's see how far can I take this job. How strong am I to work with people who have a low mentality.

My Jobless Thought

Hey, there. I'm still OFFICIALLY jobless. No, I'm not proud being jobless. It's more like kinda depressing to be sitting in the room, facing the wall each day and wondering if there's any hope for me? To have at least a decent job to support my family or at least have enough income to support myself?Well I don't know and I'm not sure.

Feels like I still have long way to go. So many life achievement that is yet to be achieve. Depression, insomnia, nightmares and etc. keep attacking me. Every time I'm going to bed, my mind racing. How am I gonna get money to pay my study loan debt with me being jobless. What should I eat?How should I pay all the bills?I don't know. I'm scared. 

Never did I ever imagine for my life to be turned out like this. 

But there's always one thing that I'm always grateful for is to have this journey called life. To be able to be just ALIVE.STILL BREATHING. I think i just need to be strong because this life I have is not an easy path yet I'm grateful. Always.

Trust HIM

Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help me to trust You and in Your will for me. I am really having a hard time in surrendering everything because I wanted to be in control in some areas of my life.
But deep in my heart I know that only You, can control everything, and set everything right. Please help me to learn to let go of things and let You handle all things that I struggle with and worry about.
Please help me to remember how You have always taken care of my concerns in its proper time and place.
Please help me to understand things beyond my knowledge for I know it is only in You
where I can find peace and understanding.
This I seek and pray for in Jesus Mighty name…Amen.

Unproductive~

It is the most unproductive 5 months in my life. It's not easy. To have NO income at all. I'm glad to have a supported family. 

For this year, my resolution is easy. To have at least a decent job and to earn a stable income.

Note to self: