Thursday, March 31, 2011

Rise & shine ! Haha a bit too late, but never mind :D

So yeah..Tomorrow is April already..I've only 4 weeks to go before my 3semester ended.YAY! and I'm proud to announced  that I'm officially free from assignments..wohooo!It's like weird on how did I managed to finish it off without copying and paste okay..I've pass up all my completed 6 of em...

Now, I only need to concentrate on for my presentations next week. I have 3 presentations to go and I really need to practice more... 
After, I've done with all my presentations, I would started to do revision for my's just around the corner and I hope that I could maintain my pointer..

To sum up this month: Disappointed, Excited, Happy, Sad, Mad, Stress, Busy, Crappy, Sleepy.

Miss You....

6am: Off to bed after finished off my assignments...Yeah

3:30pm: Woke up only to realized that I've missed my class which is started at 2pm

3:35pm: Mum called. I told my mum that I'm at home and just woke up and didn't go to college. Am glad that mum didn't said anything about it since she's understand on how "hardworking" I am when I'm doing my assignments

4:40pm : Conversations ended. Trying to remember what's my mum said on the phone. Oh my mum said to take a good care of my health( I'm not), get enough sleep( which I didn't practice nowadays since I have tonnes of things to be done) and etc...

Oh..mum..I wished you know how much I've been missing you and all at homes. I miss your home cooked meals  that is cook with lots of love...

My mum's bunga kertas and I just love the colour


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Think About It

“Everything you do right now ripples outward and affects everyone. Your posture can shine your heart or transmit anxiety. Your breath can radiate love or muddy the room in depression. Your glance can awaken joy. Your words can inspire freedom. Your every act can open hearts and minds.”

`David Deida~

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Off Days

What can be better, than a lazy Sunday where you turn off your alarms and just wake up as late as you want?

I have been waking up at 2pm since Friday, so alarm are no issue to me. But for the others, Sunday's an off day. For me, Friday, Saturday and Sunday is my off day. Isn't it too much?LOL

I've been renting a house here in Miri, so, I don't need to do the chores since the landlord would do it weekly. I only need to wash my own laundry,my own dishes and also I only need to clean my own room. So, basically, I really have nothing to do.

That's why I've been sleeping like a pig:D

Today, I suddenly cravings for a spicy foods and looks what I eat for my lunch. Everything was cooked with chili paste@ sambal

Vege in Chili paste

Chicken in chili paste

Friday, March 25, 2011

The Wonder of Maths

This is what my friends and I currently obsessed with..

How do these people know how to work this out? 

1. Key-in the first 3 digit of your hand phone number(not the 01x no.) into the calculator
2. Multiply by 80
3. Add 1
4. Multiply by 250
5. Plus last four digit of phone number
6. Plus last four digit of phone number again
7. Minus 250
8. Divide by 2
Is it your hand phone number?
This had made all of us wondering the whole did it could happen?
That's The Wonder of Maths:)

Way Ho

This girl is from Norway and look at how she's lip sync this song..
She's so cool..I tell you..
She's singing as if like she's giving a concert..
and the most important thing is that she's enjoying herself..
Notice her eyes movement...
Notice how she's *wink* at the camera..
 I just love it and don't ask me why..
Maybe I just love how she pronounce the "way ho" part.. 

Thursday, March 24, 2011


Encountered with lots of "problems, tasks and trials these few days…"
Am I complaining?
No, I’m not.
I just wondered why?
Am I getting stronger?
Am I tired of life?
I don’t know but I really don’t feels anything…
Maybe I’m just having too much of "it" until I become SO NUMB LIKE THIS…

Although you may not be able to control certain situations in your life, you can control how you CHOOSE to deal with them!

Monday, March 21, 2011

The Reason

Ah well, song to listen from the year 2004! 7 years ago :)
I've heard it twice while in the Boulevard Supermarket just now...

 I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know...

Sunday, March 20, 2011

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

If you love your dad, reblog.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Random Day

By all means marry; if you get a good wife, you'll be happy; if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.

Copy & Paste

I'm currently been doing my group assignments for my Occupational Health Subject...
And let me tell you this...
Basically, I do all my assignments with the help of Wikipedia, Google etc..Yes..copy and paste..
I've been doing it since my 1st semester...

Now at my 3rd semester I find it hard to do assignments by doing copy & paste...
Sadly enough that my lecturer had been giving me assignments that really need to be done through a lots of reading and not by just copying and paste...

My lecturer is smart enough to give me this kind of assignments..
It is actually what I will do exactly when I'm working as a Safety & Health Officer..

The Topic: Set an Occupational Health Department for the plywood factory of 250 workers and the budget given was RM 200,000.00

I'm lost and confused on how to spent that big amount of money for such a small scale of factory..
I've been spending almost 6 hours reading this:

Encyclopedia of occupational health and safety, Volume 1; Volume 5

 By Jeanne Mager Stellman, International Labour Office
Me? reading an ENCYCLOPEDIA? my parents would be proud if they seen me like this^^
I really hope that this encyclopedia will help me a lot since I'm still reading it.
p/s my back hurt a lot & now I'm feeling worn out!

My Dad as A Handy Man

I've been in my dark room for 1 day already. My landlord said that he will come and fix that lamp but he's still haven't come. My brother had offered his helping hands but seems like the lamp need a new bulb so what I can do now is just waiting.

I miss my dad. If my dad was here, he surely can fix this lamp in just a minute. I miss his job as a handy man our family.

I still remember back then when my siblings and I used to get my father's service for cutting our hair. My dad would give my sister's and I the most simplest hair cut. He would cut our bangs and all of our hair would look exactly the same. He would cut our hair on the shoulder's length so we don't need to spent a lot of our time managing our hair when we're going to school. True enough.

I still remember how many cars would park at our parking site. They are all my father's friend and they come to our house to asking for help. Yes, my dad could fix a car and he always lend a hand to his friends car for free and that's why the amount of car that need to be fixed sometimes can be out of control. FYI, my dad didn't have any proper education on how automotive@ fixing a car and he actually learn it from friends.

Gardener?Yes, my dad is really good at this. Watermelon? Guava? Jack-fruits? Leeks? Capsicum?eggplant?Cree?cabbage?Spinach?beans? You name it and it's all in our gardens..

Carpenter? yes..My dad made all of the cupboard in our homes...He made it from a starch until it become like something that you could see in the furniture shops.

Chef?Yes, he really a good chef. My mum also a good chef but my dad always cooks something that we never taste. The combination's of different kinds of veges and beans that actually makes a delicious meal.

Electrician? Yes, he's been working as an electrician and of course he can do and fix everything in the name of electrical devices.

p/s HOMESICK becomes worse...

Friday, March 18, 2011

I Just Need a Sprinkle of Confidence!

I'm not going to say that I'm fat,i am curvaceous.I'm not going to say I'm ugly,but i am beautiful!

You've Hurt Me

People says: Do think before you speak

True enough because when people didn't think before they speak/ opened their mouth, they never knew that they actually hurting someone feelings...

It happens to me this morning.
I just reach college when one of my male classmate starts to screening me and said that I am fat
Just imagined that when the words "YOU LOOKS FAT" is the first word you heard early in the morning

It pissed me off when they talks like they know me for a long time
Am I denying the fact that "I am Fat?"
Yes! I'm not fat okay..My BMI is NORMAL

It breaks my heart when they said it directly into my face
I hate it so much that it had spoiled my whole day

Even my family member's will never comment me about my body conditions in my whole life that way
My mum always said that I'm looked fine because I'm not skinny nor I'm too fat

Btw, you know what I said to him?
I said, "Why?Do I care?" and I stared blankly to him..

Well, yes, I do care what he said but I will never change my self because of what he had said because its not true!

Emerson - Mommy's Nose is Scary! (Original)

He's just soo adorable!
Btw, thanks baby Emerson for making me laugh when I almost forgot how to:)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Tasteless Day

I thought that I'm fully recovered from my recent fever
But today the same fever come back again
Duh.I hate this.

First sore throat, followed by coughing and now running nose plus fever
haish hope I can get better soon
Btw, I actually taking an advantage over my flu
I like it when everything I ate seems tasteless

So, now, I'm able to pop up a lot of lime to my mouth
I also able to eat the spicy foods

FYI, I spent a lot of money for printing today since I didn't own a printer
But I'm glad that I'm able to finish up my assignments
Now, there's only one assignments left. Computer Concepts.
Will do it next week since I have to prepare 2 presentation slides for my OCCUPATIONAL HEALTH and OCCUPATIONAL SAFETY subjects.It's a group presentations bit still I'm doing everything by myself.:(

Don't Look Back On Yesterday

Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out, no more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the aftermath

You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


It's been a long time since the all of us meet..
I guess it's been over 3 years?
I know..It's not like we're apart by millions of miles but still the timing is always not right..
When I go back to my hometown, they're not having a holiday..
So..that's why...

We've been friends for almost 8 years..We've been friends since form 1 so there's a lot of thing that had happened during that 8 years of friendships...Lots of love..lots of conflicts but we still manage to keep our promises.

They are the only one that understand me the most other than my family..

I really miss them now. I miss their words that actually therapeutic. When I'm down, they offer their ears for me..and I also will do the same thing...

Now,we've been in our own direction of life. Different path of life, different career/ course of studies, different town, but there are 1 things that remain the same..


It's Good To Know You

I never knew that cooking would be this simple until I get to know this women.
Yes..She makes all the dishes with simplicity
Did you notice her ingredients?
Everything could be found in our kitchen &
I will give it a try later when I'm going back home

Be a Bit Selfish....

I know this little kitty is cute right & just looking at it makes me feels so good:)

I think I'm always tried to please other people that I almost forgot how to please myself. 
But, now, I'm tired of it and it's just more than enough and know what?
I will be selfish a bit as I need to also consider my own opinion.
I haven’t felt such ease in a long time. Have nothing to worry about other people was always this freeing?

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

When Hard Work Paid Off?

Yesterday is my group presentation and I am the group leader for this Fire Safety subject. I bet you already know how heavy is the burden in your shoulder as a leader. I need to have a good co-operation with my 6 other members which is not an easy job at all.

Btw, I'm glad it's all over. My lecturer said our group presentation was okay. I wonder if he really meant it or not but thanks anyway.

Actually, what had made me nervous is if there's someone who will ask too much question and it did happen. One of my classmates had asked our group 7 questions and I'm glad@ relieve to tell you that I managed to answer them all. *sigh*

So, after pulling an all niter do finish up the presentation slides & reading as much information for our topic actually paid off :)

Our topic: Evacuation( How & why) and my group basically cover about the important of employer to trained their workers about fire hazard and also about what to do during fire emergencies. Also, the responsibilities of each workers at the workplace that could actually saves lives.


Yes, discrimination. I've been banned Malay songs in my life?
Why? The lyrics, the melody really- really didn't suit me..
Ask my family or my friends whether I've ever heard Malay songs
Check my lappy if you could find any...

But today, everything changed. I've been checking through my friends thumb drive and I happen to notice this song and I tried to listen to it and now I've been listening to it over and over again. This song remind me of my discrimination to a Malay song.

I don't know what so special about this song but it clearly makes my heart goes warmer each time I listen to it. So here it is...


Weird Sleep Pattern

 I think that my body began to react to my lifestyle that happens to torment my body both mentally and physically.

Let me started with my timetable for this past 2 weeks

8:30AM are Off to College

12:00PM Class dismiss

12:00PM- 1:00PM off to home, taking a bath and then take my (lunch+ breakfast)

1:00PM- 4:00PM taking a nap

4:00PM- 6:00 PM woke up, taking a bath, taking my dinner

6:00PM- 9:00PM online 

9:00 PM- 3:00 AM doing assignments, homework, and presentation slides

3:00 AM- 4:00 AM rest a bit, taking my breakfast, online 

4:00AM- 6:00 AM continued doing my task

6:00 AM – 7:00 AM taking a bath and prepared myself to college (I don’t want to take a bath when there are the male roommates around. It makes me feels so uncomfortable)

7:00AM- 8:30AM do a bit revision for morning class subjects

8:30 AM off to college

So, this is what I’ve been followed for these past few weeks. I think it’s because now, I’m having tonnes of assignments and presentations slides to do that’s why I only managed to get an average of 3 hours of sleep.
My brother was kind of concerned with this and planning to report it to my parents, but I think my parents cannot stop me since they know how stubborn I can be. If I said that I’m going to do this, it won’t change anything.  Tired? Sure. My body aches here and there but it shouldn’t be a n excuse right?
After doing this kind of timetable for almost 2 weeks, my body began to react badly. Maybe the weather also contributes to my sickness. 

Yes, I fell sick. Now, I’m suffering from a tonsillitis, fever, body ache, flu.
I cannot do my assignments and presentation slides and been wasting my time by just sleeping. I think my body and my mind need it so bad. So, yesterday, I’ve been sleeping for almost 12 hours quality sleep. It was the most pleasurable sleep yet I’m quiet worried about my presentation slides that need to be done by today.

The Koolfever really helps a lot to reduce my body heat AND eye bags worsen from day to day..urgh...

Story Of A Soul

This is her Autobiography. I've read it and her story once again touched me. It is about the humble, simple and joyful acknowledgment of God's mercy and love in St. Therese's own uncomplicated life. Read it guys and I bet you wont stop reading.

Saint Therese@ The Little Flower

I bet everyone of us already know her. Of course you all know her. But I still want to write about her today.

She described her life as a "little way of spiritual childhood." She lived each day with an unshakable confidence in God's love. "What matters in life," she wrote, "is not great deeds, but great love." Therese lived and taught a spirituality of attending to everyone and everything well and with love. She believed that just as a child becomes enamored with what is before her, we should also have a childlike focus and totally attentive love. Therese's spirituality is of doing the ordinary, with extraordinary love.

Therese saw the seasons as reflecting the seasons of God's love affair with us.  She loved flowers and saw herself as the "little flower of Jesus," who gave glory to God by just being her beautiful little self among all the other flowers in God's garden. Because of this beautiful analogy, the title "little flower" remained with St. Therese.

"My mission - to make God loved - will begin after my death," she said. "I will spend my heaven doing good on earth. I will let fall a shower of roses."

True enough. If you have tried her novena, you will felt something. Me, myself, is not a religious catholic, but there are times when things were unbearable, you will tried to pray. St. Therese had shower her roses in me. It's really hard to describe here, but once you experience it, you'll knew it. When your prayer still haven't been answer, but still you have strength in your heart, the hope that keep you going. I even start to appreciate every single thing around me. Thanks St. Therese for showering me with your roses.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Random Thought

Smooth roads never make good drivers!
Smooth sea never makes good sailors!
Clear skies never make good pilots!
Problem and hassle free life NEVER makes a strong person!!!
Be STRONG to accept and face the challenge!!!

 Hmm.True enough..But sometimes, when the burdens are too heavy and I felt like I cannot carry the burden and I really want to give up. During that hard time, seems like I often forgot on how to be strong. 

Weird enough but still I managed to let the problem pass either it is being solved or not. Sometimes, I'm just having too much problems until I become sick of it.

Now, I miss my family so much and also my little Micky. How I wish to be home today. It's an Ash Wednesday and I bet my family already at the church right now, attending the mass while I'm sitting here and do my stuff. Why? Who wants to riding on a bus alone in the middle of the night?
~Have a blessed Ash Wednesday~

Micky and I


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

What Are Words

I cried when I first heard this song. The words seriously, stab me, deep inside my heart. Their love was so pure...

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Monday, March 7, 2011

Everyday is a brand new day...


I've been thinking a lot this week about every thing's ...about my family, my future, my friends but mostly about money...Been through a lot this past 2 weeks. There are times when I just felt like giving up but when I think deeply, I am not that kind of've been through a lots for the past 22 years so I just need to learn to be S.T.R.O.N.G..How? For me, I think what's keep me going is through prayers..and also from the support from my family and friends. That's it. I seriously refuse to let anything negative effect me! So, be P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E!!

Now, it's been 9 weeks since my 3rd Semesters had start. So, I only have 7 weeks before my semester come to an end. Yay..I'm counting my days to go back home.

Oh, my!Time flies..Maybe this hectic life's makes me didn't realize how fast time flies..At times, I wished that time flies..It did..And now, March has come..Means that I only had limited time to do my revisions for my final exams on April. NOOOOO!!

For this month, I will be having 6 presentations for all my subjects AND also 6 assignments to be pass up....I hope that I can make it...For my final exams, I think I need to manage my time well so that I can do revisions while facing this H.E.C.T.I.C MONTH..

p/s Peeps, I advise you to drink lotsa water . This 'too hot' weather really- really bad. As a result, I'm having a flu, fever, sore throat and I think if I continue to drink little water in this hot weather, tonsillitis would say hi to me....urghh.. 

Take 1( Oh, the black shirt was my bro and the Grey shirt was his best friend and also my friend)

Take 2( oh no, they start to notice me, taking their picture by my web cam)

Take 3(and that's my best friend's hand and actually also my bro friends)

Take 4(Ignore my eye bags)

Take 5( Now, they was like "oh no!!are you capturing our pics?")


Sunday, March 6, 2011

Life's LikeThat

"Life Is Wonderful"

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Full circle

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Life Is Not Fair!

What would you feel when your family owned a first car? 

Happy, excited, speechless and many mixed of feelings right? My family and I had faced this situation but it was 15 years ago but we still feel the same. The feelings about our only and first car never changed. We still proud of it even though others ask us to changed it to a new one, the one that have the modern touched. But, it will never change our mind. We’ve feels really grateful to have this car that has been our true companion for the past 15 years and it has been a part of our life for so long. 

It was the old model Toyota Trooper and after some modification, it becomes 3 rows from only 2 rows in the beginning so that it will fit our 7 family members in the family. This car has been taken us on holidays, to visit friends and family, to and from school or work. We loved it so much and lavished a lot of time, energy and money on it.

It was bought when I am still 7 years old while both of my parents still working and our family is financially stable. But as we grow up, and my dad has retired from his job, leaving my mum to support our family, then money becomes the issue. 

Now, at 22 years old and currently studying at the international college while my other siblings was also still in the tertiary level at universities and college, suddenly the income becomes not enough and the debts was high. We needed money. 

Yesterday, my parents called me and told me that they are going to sell our car to cover up all of our living expenses, to pay our education fees. I never thought our financial will be this bad until my parents need to sell our only car. But they said, they need to in the name of education, they will sacrifice anything and ask my siblings and me to study hard and graduated. That’s all they want. They said we can buy a new one if all of us will get a job later. But I knew how newer, faster or shinier the new car is; none can bet the first set of wheels for the memories. 

I cried and cried. I never thought that to have a good education, this is the price that we should pay even if it means to let go the most meaningful things in your life. Our first and only car that we had ever owned is leaving and it feels like we have lost a member of our family. I feel very sentimental about this car and I knew my family feels the same too because my parents were crying when they broke this news to me. I think we have a very solid attachment to it. 

What hurts the most is when I imagining my old parents rushing and riding on the bus. It breaks my heart. I’m sorry mum and dad for burdening both of you; even though I knew you wouldn’t mind. I will study hard, graduate and find a stable job to support our family back. This is my promise.

I’m glad that even though we didn’t have much money, we still have much love, the love that is boundless and strong. That’s what matter the most.

Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn....