What Should You Know About Hyperthyroid?

As a hyperthyroid patients, I will have or felt many kind of symptoms that will cause the body to work too fast that will result in:

*Hand tremors
*Palpitations
* Excessive sweating (dislike of the heat)
*High level of nervousness
*Increased appetite but at the same time losing weight too
* Problems in breathing

This is based on what I felt and it will vary from the other Hyperthyroid patients. From what I read, the excitability can eventually lead to death from the exhaustion of the body.


THE DIET

~ Do supporting the body by eating any multivitamins to replace the nutrients

~ Eat a lot of soya products, broccoli, cauliflower, onions, pears  or spinach as it will suppress the thyroid    function

~Control stress

~Regular exercise

~ Maintain regular sleep cycle

AND AVOID OR DO NOT DRINK: coffee, coke or black tea because the caffeine in them will increase the metabolic rate. 

Imma going back home on Sunday

Fifth semester finally over with the last paper. One more semester + practical to go. 


Seems like everything happens so fast.


Now, I'm only one step closer for my graduation day but still I have so many things to be done.


Today's paper which is the Safety Training is just so and so. I didn't managed to answer the questions especially the essay. I don't know and I don't care because I'm so looking forward for my holiday. 


Gonna spent the whole month with my family. Thinking to add 2 weeks on my own holidays so that I can spent my CNY with my family. 


Just wait and see. 

This Week is The Best

No more assignments!
No more presentation for this Semester!!yay!!



and...



today I went  to the Miri Isuzu Fest and I saw Baki Zainal. He is so funny! He even replied my tweets. I've started to like Baki when he's hosting the 8tv nite live :) and for the 1st time I saw a belly dancing performance right in front of my eyes. I think I've seen them before. Oh, I only saw them in Cleo magz :p They're Pauline and Percy. They're both pretty and the moves was really awesome. Also, I've got to watch Stacy. And this is all FREE. That's the best!

I'm So Not Looking Forward For Tomorrow

I'm feeling down. Yes you heard me. DOWN.UNMOTIVATED.

Yesterday = my presentation day. Eventhough my lecturer said my group was the best group, I felt nothing. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just too tired for I have been so busy doing and preparing my last minute presentation slide. I do felt grateful that everything went well and that's it. I came back home, playing game, walked to the bank to checked my money which is so depressing because it haven't been banked in yet and sleeping until today. Mum called and I heard Micky's meowing loudly at the back. Maybe I'm miss my family and Micky too much until I cried when I go to sleep yesterday. I don't know what's wrong with me but I feels like there's something really missing here, deep inside my heart and I don't even know what is it.

The Effects?

I've been putting an all niter for this past few days. I even didn't remember for how many times I have take a bath due to stress. I only slept for 2 maximum 2 hours and now you know what I felt? I'm having headache, I felt like vomiting, I'm super sensitive and all the negative kinda thing. Oh i know how to describe it. IT'S MOODY. I hate it if I'm being moody because I know the people around me will be affected but it's just that I couldn't control it. Everything feels so wrong. I hate you, moody day!

It's about me

I'm going absolutely insane and nobody has notice..

...except my Bro. Not really insane but almost. I've been doing my assignment for 2 days in a row. I didn't have time to take a bath. I didn't even realize that I've been wearing the same clothes for 2 days. Why? I'm doing my last minute assignment so that's why. My lecturer gave me this assignment 1 month ago and I didn't even do anything during that looooonnnnnggg time but due to my procrastination behaviour, this thing happened. This 2 weeks will be the presentation week which is almost the stressing week for me since I'm not really good in communicating. I mean, I'm not good when talking in front of people. In my class, I have 45 classmate plus the lecturer,make it 46. I'm pretty nervous eventho it's my 5th semester already. 1 more semester to go. That's mean I only need to do 1 presentation to go next semester. YAY!!

~I wonder how I do it. I mean how I do I survive in my past 5 semester presentation ;(

 

I'm Sorry for being a Professional Procrastinator

I am. I'm pretty sure I am. For my 5th semester for my diploma, I'm still using this method.I liked it actually. Actually, I have only 4 days to finish up all my assignments and presentation slides as I am the group leader.I have 4 assignments and presentation slide to go. Do I regretting it now?No, I don't.Am I nuts?No,I'm not.It's just that I liked to do last minutes thingy. I've tried to do it as soon as possible when my lecturers are giving it to me LAST SEMESTER but sadly I only do it halfway. So, if I doing it like this,I mean on my way I can finish it up for 2 days only. Strangely enough? I think I can only do things well when I'm tensed.

This is me?

Damn you hormone...

...coz playing with me today. I'm trying my best to control my crankiness today. Bro asked me why I kept following him and I felt like being ignored. My friend ask me to do all the task for the group assignment and I'm yelling at her. Even got asked by my lecturer in today's class.Gosh. I'm glad I can answered him. He asked my what is the significance of having a safety training in a company? My answer: To comply with the OSHA 1994. I think I'm falling in love with all of this law thingy. I used to hate it but as time passed by I realized law is not that hard. It only required reading and interpreting.I fall in love with law.

After all of the moodiness, I felt much better. Cooked dinner today,eat dinner,drinking coffee with crackers and now sitting infront of my lappy.

Today, I choose to be productive. I'll try my best to finish up all of my assignment today or at least this week. 

 For this semester, I have 5 subjects but I dropped 1 subject to make my life a whole lot easier. 3 group assignment, 1 individual assignment and 4 presentation.Wish me luck~

I Wonder How is it FEELS like to...

....have a cousin/s. I do have cousins but we're living miles away. Also, because the family conflicts,I'll never get to know them. I wonder what the difference when you have a cousin.Is it the same relationship you have with your best friend or was there any border between you and your cousin?I wonder.

What I'm Listening To Lately

Hongki looked so cute here ;)

They grew up a bit I think ;))

I've always love their songs

My Bro said that they're quite old to sing something like this and defensively I said; age doesn't meant anything coz they're still the same like they were used to be years ago :))

I know this kinda old right but I still love this song. I find it quite interesting for Jong Kook who is also known as Sparta in Running Man could dance cutely in this Mv.Yeah, if you're watching Running Man you'll know how fierce he is :D

If It Kills Me

"If it kills me,

If it kills me,

It might kill me"

Ever heard people die out of emptiness? Nope. I'm determined to fill my emptiness by listening to music.

I'm Torn Between The Choices For My Future

I'm still alive. Currently busy with studies as I have 1 semester left before graduating :D:D. I'm really excited yet I'm pretty scared to leave my student life because I know things will not going to be the same again when I'm working already.As a student, I have so much time learning about all of the theories but I know when I'm working later, I have to put all of these theories into practical. I don't know yet on what industry I will be working with but clearly it has to be either Oil & Gas, Shipping or Construction Industry. I've asked my lecturer who's working as a Safety & Health Executive about my future as a fresh graduate student. I know it will be a bit challenging for me to find a job as all of the vacancies requirement needed at least someone who have 3 years experience but my lecturer said it's not gonna be that hard as I will still be considered if the company really need someone to fill the position. I'm really hope so that everything will be fine :)

Managing my own money

It's not that I hate math. I do love this subject but when it comes to managing my own money with my own style, I find it really hard. For this past years, my mum is the one who will help me to manage my money, how much should I spent on my food, house rent, college fees etc..but now that I'm 22 years old, I think it's the right moment for me to start managing my own finance.

My Family Matters

I have 1 older sister which is now 30 years old, 2 older brothers aged 25 & 24 years old, 1 younger sister which is 20 years old and here am I, 22 years old. So, basically I have 5 sibling and I'm the 4th. Growing up in that "big" family, there's a lot of personality you can see in my family. Both of my sisters don't want to tense up with all of the problems. They want to live their life with less problems/ no problems at all. So, if my parents have a problem, they will be the one who will run away. My 2nd brother, he's quite okay with it. He can tolerate with the family problem while my other brother is not really good in handling problems. He cannot stand with the tense & awkward situations. In the end, it was me. What me? It was me who need to be someone who will be hearing all of my family problems. It will always be me who will be giving my opinion to both of my parents. Sometimes, I wonder how can I be patient & strong enough to face with it. Sometimes, eventho I'm crying inside of my heart, I cannot show it up because I need to be strong so that my parents will always think that they can count on me. Maybe it's my talent. To heard the problems, to solve it, to give my honest opinion and so on.

Today, at 7am my mum called me. I know my parents argue with each other again but it was surely not a serious matter at all because I knew tomorrow or the day after tomorrow things will get better again. Things will be back like usual. My mum of course will tell me every details about it. I know for some of you, sharing the problems with your children is not good at all but for me, I don't mind. I really want to share their burden. I want to lessen their problems. At 9pm, my dad called but for sure he will not tell me anything and he will talk as if nothing happened. Sometimes, I felt funny. I don't know why.  But that's what family all about right? After all they are my beloved family.

Semester break my own way

After spending almost 1month plus 2 weeks of my own added holiday, now I'm back to college. urghh..boleh buat cuti sendiri? of course boleh, as long as you need to be mentally prepared when you're going back to college because the lesson is already started for 2 weeks already. So, now, I need to catch back everything that I missed especially the lecture's notes and luckily my classmates saves it for my bro and I..

Why we were extending my semester break? Because my Bro & I felt like the 1month break given by the college is not enough for us. That's the 1st reason. Then, my Bro need to wait for his new identity card that will take almost 1month to be done and me? of course because I need to get treated for my Hyperthyroid. At first, my parents didn't agree with us but after convincing them with our past semester results, we managed to have our extra 2 weeks.yay.

What I do during the whole semester break? I spent it with my beloved family. I will follow them wherever the go since I cannot bear the thought of being far from them. I started to appreciate my parents home-cooked meals and I ate like there will be no tomorrow. It shows by my 7KG weight gain. Yes, you heard me. When I'm going back to my hometown,my weight is 58 KG and after all of those "holidaying" my weight is now 65KG. I don't care about my weight anymore because I know I will loss it back when I'm away from them for this 2 months.

Arghh, it's only been 28hours since I left home but I started to miss them all at home. I know they feel the same too.

~2months to go before I can go back home"(

 

Why? I should appreciate myself more...there is no such thing as losing =)
Its time to be thankful for what i have in life. No more looking down on myself and i hope God will bless people who are less fortunate..

Am Bored

 I know, I should start doing my revision right now since it's a study week this week but seems like I still don't have the urge to do so. Actually, Imma start doing my revision today but I ended up doing a spring cleaning for my room and the moment I want to study, I'm feeling tired already.  So, I think I'm going to start tomorrow. No procrastination.

I ended up browsing though this quiz and I did it just for fun before Imma off to bed. Can you spot the "blue words?" I think it's reflects on myself a bit ;)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

 

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

 

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

 

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

 

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

 

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

 

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

 

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

 

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

This video's never fails to make me happy & impressed.

Thanks be to God!! Things are getting better, praise the Lord. =)

There are times when things really get worse. Sometimes, I'll be asking God, "will things get better, Lord?" and of course God, You didn't answer straight away. You probably want me to grow right, God? Grow in terms of faith, trust and hope. When You didn't grant me what I want, I'll be frustrated and feeling down, but I know, You're giving me the best. Now, after a few months of confusions, anger, tiredness and Etc. my wish was granted and it was much better than my plan. Am grateful Lord for this blessings. Thanks be to God.

Am Not Going To Give Up

There are sometimes when I really want to give up. I know, I'm being stupid but this kind of feelings is always there, deep inside my heart. I always need someone to remind me, either it's my family or friends, to keep me motivated. I hope that I'll always be strong, no matter what happens, I should be strong. I cannot let my family down anymore. I don't want to regret it later. I don't want it to be a burden for me just because of my immature actions.

Study Week

So, basically, now all I have to do is to do my revisions since it was study week. My final will start on 11 July and last on 12 July. As you know, this semester is the short semester so my lecturer said based on the credit hour, it was advisable to take maximum 2 subjects. I've asked the management of my College if I could add up my subjects because I think 2 subjects feels like wasting my time but sadly the answer was NO.

For the Occupational Health 2, I'm pretty confident that I could score an A for it but for the other subject which is Ergonomics had always made me worried. Since the first day of this semester, seems like I find it hard to understand it well. I think I will use this study week time properly. I wish I could do well in this semester. So, do my Bro.

~Happy Saturday~

My Limit

Living in the same house & in the same class with my older brother really have it's own pros and cons. Last Friday, it is our turn to do our presentations in class but each of us presenting in our own group where he is the group leader for his group and I'm the leader for my group.

So, while I'm in the middle of my group presentation, the lecturer's suddenly said "eh, what are you talking about, this act actually have the new & revised version. The act that you're talking is the old one". On that moment, I realized that my expressions changed. Am frustrated and it's all shown in my face during the whole presentation.

My Bro who happen to be on the class at that time said "why your face like that...why your expression like that ..I think you can do better than that...why did you didn't do more research...etc" and it's goes on for 2 days. He'd been talking over the same thing until today.

Me?I remain silence for that 2 days because I know I've done nothing wrong. I've asked and shown my presentation slides to my lecturer and he said that what he want. That's why I feel so frustrated when the lecturer saying that thing only on my presentation day. Also, my expression. How am I suppose to control that. If you're in my feet, after working so hard only to heard that on your presentation? I'm frustrated and it's hurting me..

30 minutes ago, my Bro said the same thing. This time, I cannot hold it anymore. I've exploded. The anger that I've hold inside my heart for this past few days, I've splashed it to my Bro with my violent words that he  never heard before. I let it out. All out. I'm not going to remain silence again.

My Bro? Of course he'd shocked and I think he's not going to talk about it anymore.

Yes, I may make mistakes when I try. When I do, you'll laugh at me for trying. But here's the difference: I tried, while you jut sat there

Making mistakes when attempting to learn is part of learning. I pay my education in money, time, emotion, effort and energy. And so I learn.

 

I have to pass through a dark night of the soul.

You have to pass through a dark night of the soul.

Everyone does, including you. A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you. When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple. When it seems that dark night is all around, and you are all alone. Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being. God is waiting for you on the other side.

Asking for help

My class consist of 40+ students and I think among all of them, they're still some of them that I've never spoke to. Including this one guy. Actually, I've talk to him once in the 1st semester when we're in the same group but I stopped talking to him after I got scolded by him. I hate him so much that I never talk to him for the next 3 semester and he do the same. Now, in the 4th semester, he suddenly started to talk to me again & I think it's  time for me to forget about what had happened between us. Today, I've asked him something regarding our assignment and surprisingly he helped me. Thanks to him that now I know how to do my assignments. yay.
Oh, silly me. Look at how immature am I.

Good music make me feel good. Good music help me fall asleep easy, help me dream good. Good beat + Good lyrics = Life.

These songs must be so good that I never failed to played it over and over again.

When Your Words Comforting me

So, I've been updating my FB status and saying like this;

"You're so selfish!!Don't you know how many people had suffered because of your selfishness??Please stop being so immature!!!!"

Yeah, sounds mean right but I really cannot hold it anymore. I really hope that the person will read it.  That person didn't know how many people had suffered because of her actions. My family & I already forgive her last time when she's done the biggest mistake in her life but seems like she didn't take it as a lessons. 

What touched me the most is when my classmate give me his "kind words" that I think is really comforting me. Thanks to him that now I felt much better. 

This is what he said in reply to my status;

"A selfish person believes that he or she can survive alone. So, fulfill his/her wish and leave that person alone. Your time, energy and mind is better of elsewhere. That person doesn't deserve your attention bah. You, on the other hand, deserve better."

Just A Random Thought

 While I was having my dinner, I have this thought in my head which is a very random thought. Which is: I'm going to give my full concentration on my study so no "love" at this moment. I just think that I won't be able to focus on my studies if I involve in "love" or in the other words, being with someone or in relationship. Am I have no feelings towards men at all? Of course I do have feelings for them but I think this is not the right moment yet.

I promised to study hard so I can give my parents what they never had. A better life.

Black & White Milkshake

My Bro & I

My Bro: You should sleep now.

Me: Of course, I will but give me 15 minutes.

My Bro: *Peeking through my door & saw my lap top was on*
               You know what, I think you should discipline yourself more. That's what you need.      

                D.I.S.C.I.P.L.I.N.E!
       
Me: Just stared at him until he's off to his own room.

Urghhhh...I know. I know. Things getting worse here. I mean my insomnia. Yesterday, I've sleep only at 11:30 am and then I woke up at 5pm. My Bro don't like my sleep pattern & asked me to discipline myself. He think I should force myself to sleep because it's possible. I've been putting an all niter because of my lap top.So, I better off to bed now before my Bro checking on me again later.

Good Night~

Happy Father's Day,Pa.

Frankly, I am not a daddy's girl, asking anything and I can get it in a jiffy. But what I do know is that my dad will try his best to carry the "dad's" title. Thanks Pa for being the most wonderful father for the 5 of us and a good husband to Ma. Thanks for all of your sacrifices in order to support our family. I know it must be hurt you a lots for all the sacrifices. I know, I know. I'm not going to disappoint you. Even though I never said I love you,Pa, but deep inside my heart, you know, I do love you.We both know it.

Happy Father's Day, Pa. May God bless you always...
p/s I know he's not going to read it but I still like to acknowledge how this day as special too.

xoxo

When I First Found out about my Hyperthyroidism

A few years ago, when the doctor said that I was having a hyperthyroid, I was shocked and a bit confused. I still remember that I'll almost cried when the doctor said it to me. I know, I'm overreacting. I thought that I was going to die over this "HYPERTHYROID".But how would you feel, when you're only13/14 years old & you don't even know what is "HYPERTHYROID" is all about and someone told you that you're having it inside your body? isn't it frightening? I am.

Thanks to my mum for being the first one who noticed about it at first. My mum said she noticed that I'm having it when saw how drastically my mood, my appetite and my weight had changed.She know something is wrong and that's how my journey as a "HYPERTHYROID" patients started.

 

Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours. Good morning Thursday

Why?Last Minute Again?

Yes, I admit it. I've made last minute assignments again. I don't know why but seems like I'll always stick with this kind of "bad attitude" as it's suit me the best. I think other people may have other ways right?Some says to me that my "last minute attitude" is just way too dangerous as I may do it very the cincai one but I know I'm not that kind of person who would do a cincai work even though it's a last minute one.


For this semester, I've only have 2 subjects as this is a very short semester. What makes it challenging to me is that I need to do all the assignments in a very SHORT time. I'm the group leader for this 2 group which means I'm the leader for both of my subjects. So, I need to do@  be well prepared for  this GROUP PRESENTATION as I need to do my other 2 individual assignments. I think I need to make sure that I'm going to pass it up in this week because all this week is the dateline.


Why I didn't do it earlier?Why?It's just that when under pressure my brain is forced to think harder & job done quickly haha

MyTypical Sunday

It's Sunday and it's the time where I'll relaxed the most. No, not because I've done my assignments. It's because today is Sunday and all I can said is that I've trained to myself to "do nothing" on Sunday or you can said it's really an unproductive day for me. Well, at least I did wash my hair. I think I will miss this moment later. The moment where I'm sitting alone in my room, listening to some music while having breakfast, sleep as long as I want, helping my Bro with his assignments, chatting and laughing with him, do everything I want and arranging my notes for class tomorrow. I think I will miss it a lot when I'm working later. The homesick I felt which makes me stronger. The unbearable feelings I felt where I really miss my family especially when I need them during my hard times, but I know all of this things is useful for me. I'm getting stronger and stronger as times goes by. I will appreciate every moments in my life, even though it a bad or good time, it's still the only time I have after all.

p/s To my dear family, don't worry about me, I'll be a good person and I'm not going to disappoint you guys. This is my promise.

A Lesson Learnt

I used to whined and complained a lot. Sometimes, I complained when I think that I've had not enough money, when I had a lot of assignments, when my room is hot, when the food is not nice, when my parents nagging, when I need to do a chores, when I need to study but not until I watch this video which makes me appreciate a little things around me. I think I'm the most pathetic and poorest people in the world, but they're another persons who suffers more than me.M.O.R.E. He didn't even have a chance to go to school while I've a chance to study in College. I've promised to myself not to whined or complaining anymore and I've even appreciate the moments when my parents nagging me, my hot room or the chores because I kinda miss it when I'm away from home.

 

The moment I heard his voice, my tears just flowing out T__T

Her Engagement

My childhood friend is engaged but I'm a bit frustrated as I couldn't attend her big day. I wish I could attend her engagement, I really want to be by her side, to see her glowing face. All I could do is to pray for her happiness.

Carol & Eli

    

They've been together for 9 years & Eli is her first love. Isn't it really good to have your first love as you husband? The first and the last? I really like this kind of idea..Ohh..Isn't it sweet...XD

Moody Day

Like what I said I'm in the process of doing my group assignment where's the task been fully done by me. So, after pulling an all niter, reading and doing lots of research about the topic : Health and Safety Legislation, I start to write down all the useful information as my raw material. Today, I show it to my lecturer, know what he said? He said I don't need to do it too detailed, all he want was the general one only. So I've been wasting my time doing things a bit too much. As you know I'm a perfectionist so this is what happen to myself today. My head going to explode after reading all the legislation thingy. You know what I mean right? The words are really hard to be understand but I still managed to understand it at the end. But what I got? Rejection. I'm tired, frustrated and currently in a really bad mood mode.

See ya

I wish I could stop myself from being an expert procrastinator

Tomorrow the class gonna start.  Feeling a bit lazy because I've been in holiday mode for 1 week ( Gawai holiday). For that 1 week holiday, I've spent my time more on on9, having a movie marathon and lots of sleep. Know what? Now I need to paid it off. I'm going to pulling an all niter today as I need to do my assignment. It's a group presentation but as a group leader, I need to do all the presentation slides which is seriously unfair. It was a group work, yet still I need to do it alone. That's why I hate doing a group work. It's just a waste of time. There's no communication at all. I could have do it 6 days ago but as you know, I'm the expert procrastinator, so what do you expect from me? Never mind, my last minute work is the best after all.So, this is what I'm going to do today:

• Health & Safety Legislation ( I'm still quite unsure on what should I do since there's quite a lot of legislation that covered under Health & Safety. Should I include the OSHA? FMA? UBBL? I don't know yet. It's so challenging to prepare the presentations slides since the time given is only 15 minutes and my group have 5 other members)

•  Occupational Safety 2

.Learn, live, love and appreciate the journey called "life"

This is such an inspiring & brilliant video. There's so many things that have been touched here. It has a very powerful message even though it is such a simple video. Take a moment to watch during your break. This video revolves around people with difference race and color, venturing on their answers to the most common questions that even me, myself find it hard to answer because it's something universal. But I still want to answer 2 of the questions.

What the meaning of life to you?

For me, I think, life is just a journey & wherever we're going, whatever our destination is, the only thing that matters the most in life is the RIDE. Whatever it is, we need to learn, live, love and appreciate the journey called life and shared it with the persons we love. Be it our family, friends, neighbor,pets or God. We're all in this world together right?


What makes you happy?

To be able to live & shared my life with my beloved family and God in our simple life. The fact that we're loving each other makes me feel happy. We're living our life to the fullest.

Don’t be afraid to give your best

to what seemingly are small jobs.

Every time you conquer one

it makes you that much stronger.

If you do the little jobs well,

the big ones will tend to take care of themselves

My Own Guru @ Inspiration

I just like her. I don't know why but I think she's humble even though she's really good with make ups. I once watched the other make up Guru but sometimes I just don't like the way they do it. She's the one who's making me feels curious and interested in make up thingy, clothes, vlog and even the products. She's so sweet & nice. Ah, she even asked my questions. XD

I'm Holding My Anger

My Bro: Hey, did you see my money. I put it on your table.

Me: Huh? I never saw it.

My Bro: I put it here. How could it lost?

Me: I don't know! I didn't touched it!

My Bro: but I remembered that I put it here just now.
             ( He's even checking on my purse)


He's been asking for 7 times to be exact. I hate it! it's like he's been accusing me for stealing his money when I know I'm not. The moment I saw him checking on my purse, I'm almost explode!!!!Seriously, ALMOST!!
I even said to my self that if he was going to ask my where the heck his money is, I'm sure he will splash with my anger.  Then, suddenly, he was silent. I knew it. He forgot that he'd already put that damn money in his pocket. I don't even want to look at him. I'm too mad but when he suddenly said that he was going to buy my favourite Chocolate Cake,my heart is cold again. The anger that I've hold is all vanished.

That's how my bro do it. He know exactly how to spoiled my mood, how to hurt me and he even know how to heal them back again.

What Exactly Had Happened?

Class going to start next week. So, the holiday is almost over. I've been spending my holiday by staying at my room and sleep almost all the time *hibernating mode*. But there's a weird thing happened yesterday. As you know, I'm living in this house with my bro and the other people. I'm the only girl & considering that fact, I've always take a safety precaution especially, always lock the door. When I woke up at yesterday, I noticed that my door is opened. Not widely open, but it's opened. I'm seriously scared, confused and thinking hard. What I can remember, before I go to bed, I did checked & lock the door. I don't know how did it happen. Is it my bro who forgot to close the door? or is it me, who open it by myself during sleep? or is it other people who open it? I hope not. I'm scared to ask my bro. I hate myself for sleeping like there's no tomorrow until I didn't realize I'm sleeping with the opened door. I should be careful next time.

This is suppose to be yours

Bianca, this is what I want to do for you. But, it won't be materialize anymore.

You'll Always in my heart..

I called my family today as my bro & I have been missing them. I have chance to talked to my sister & my mum only while my bro have a chance to talked to dad, mum & my sister. I bet he's missing them so much right?

I talked & talked to my sister when she suddenly told me about my turtle, Bianca. She said that Bianca is died already. My tears flowed as a river. Yes, I cried over that turtle. Some says, why need to cry over a turtle? Yeah, Bianca is a turtle in your eyes, but in my eyes, she's more than a turtle to me. She's been a good and loyal friend of mine. When all my friends seems so far away, Bianca was always by my side. My mum said her time has come & I need to let her go.

I don't know. I just hate the fact that I cannot see her for the last time. Same thing goes to Barney. He also died when I'm away from home.Why Bianca? Why don't you wait for me. It will only 6 more weeks before I'm going back home.

Yesterday, I'll watch a lotsa videos on the You Tube about turtle. I've been doing lotsa research about you on your diet. I've been planning to buy something for you to be place on your place so that you'll feel good in that huge aquarium. I so mad at my self for not doing all of this things much earlier. There's so many things I want to do for you Bianca.

RIP to my dear, Bianca.Thanks for being part of my life for the last 6 years..T__T

Hilarious School Exam Answers

Q. Name the four seasons
A. Salt, pepper, mustard and vinegar
The following questions were set in last year’s GCSE examination in England.

These are genuine answers from 16 year olds, not very bright, but entertaining, 16 year olds.

Q. In a democratic society, how important are elections
A. Very important. Sex can only happen when a male gets an election

Q. What are steroids
A. Things for keeping carpets still on the stairs

Q. What happens to your body as you age
A. When you get old, so do your bowels and you get intercontinental

Q. What happens to a boy when he reaches puberty
A. He says goodbye to his boyhood and looks forward to his adultery

Q. Name a major disease associated with cigarettes
A. Premature death

Q. What is artificial insemination
A. When the farmer does it to the bull instead of the cow

Q. How can you delay milk turning sour
A. Keep it in the cow

Q. How are the main 20 parts of the body categorized (e.g. The abdomen)
A. The body is consisted into 3 parts – the brainium, the borax and the abdominal cavity. The brainium contains the brain, the borax contains the heart and lungs and the abdominal cavity contains the five bowels: A, E, I, O and U

I can only give away what I already have inside myself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Most of my words are necessary

All too often I speak simply to fill the space with sound, because I felt too uncomfortable with the silence. But this silence is golden. Only in silence you can hear God speak to you. Only in silence can a real prayer, a heart prayer be born. Next time you start chattering, stop and feel into the silence, feel its shape, its texture, and then slowly and silently say only what really has to be said.