Tuesday, December 11, 2012


There's a lot of prayers. For me, as a Catholic, I used to pray Rosary and the other prayer. Lately, my parents introduce me to this prayer which is The Rosary of Liberation. I think it's a good prayer tho.Try it!

The Most "Lifeless" days in my life TT

Been back home since Aug from my practical training and life has been quite unproductive since then. Oh my!Feels so empty,lonely and miserable. I'm officially jobless for almost 4 months now. 

No job, no work and no money but it's good tho because now I start to appreciate every money that given by my parents. It's hard to be jobless.

X'mas too won't be as exciting as the past years. No more celebration. No more presents.No more good food. But I'm grateful to be close with my family for this 4 months. After almost 3 years away from home for my Diploma, this is the longest holiday.

I don't know when will I get a job. I'm trying to get one lately. I pray that I'll get one. God's will.

Oh yeah been watching this awesome K Drama lately~

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

I'm counting my dayssss

..before i'm going back my hometown.YES!i'm gonna be with my family and I will be officially jobless. Nevermind,as long as I am working at my hometown, that should be fine.I'm not gonna stay at my current town here in Miri. I hate it!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I am sorry for walking?

I am alone here in Miri and am currently doing my industrial training at this one company. I have no cars so I have to use public transportation and walk for around 10 minutes. My company have a guard house in front of the main gate so they surely saw me walking to work. They was like "hey,you're walking today?" I really want to answer: YES and SO WHAT?? WHY DO THEY NEED TO BE FUCKING BUSY BODY?So WHAT IF I"M WALKING TO WORK?IT"S NOT LIKE IT IS SO WRONG TO WALK?!!

Maybe because I'm the only one who'd didn't have a car. The cleaner even have a car.
But how did you moron expect me to have a car when I am only a student??!I don't even worked yet!
My mum was right. She said all the guard is not even educated and they won't understand the simple thing like this.


Monday, June 25, 2012

It's over TT

I mean my 2 and 7 months diploma course. It has just ended on last Saturday. Last Saturday is my final exam for Risk Assessment paper in the morning session and quiz on the evening session. Why quiz? It is because for this final semester, there is no presentation due to time constraints. Yeah, just imagine how much time will it take for over 40 students in my batch to finish up all the presentation when the duration for this semester is only 1month plus.

I don't know how about you guys but for me, after my final semester ended I just feeling pretty sad. There will be no classes to attend, no presentation, no last minute doing assignment and no exam. I somehow, want to be a College Student again. I do complained in my past post about how hectic it is or how bored I am, but that was during that moment. Now, I do miss being a College Student. I want to learn more.

Being a student means that I am allowed to do mistakes as it is time for me to learn. Now, I am doing my industrial training and mistake is still allowed but later when I am working, mistake won't be acceptable. I don't know but I feels like I'm not ready yet to be a "working women".

My brother said that he too, miss our College Life. See? My brother also feels the same. I'm glad that both of us are doing well. 

What's left? The convocation that will be held on the end of this year.

The first meeting that I've attended. This is for contractors for PCSB and this monthly meeting will basically discuss about HSE matters.

Korean Drama #8: Rooftop Prince

I am currently watching this drama. It is pretty confusing at the first episode but as time goes by, I began to understand the flow of this drama. I like it because this is different from any other Korean Drama that I've watched because of the era combination( Joseon and modern era).

Fantasy, Comedy and Romance. The genre itself tells everything. Sometimes, I found myself laughing, in love and also sad while watching this drama. Mind you, this drama will make you have a mixed feelings. 

This is the part when they're pulling pranked by ringing people's door bell ;D

The romantic part =)

Noticed the hero? I think all of you know who's the Prince, right?JYJ's Yoochun. Awwwee. He's too cute. Both Yoochun and Jung Yoo Mi are so talented in delivering the right emotion and feeling. What I liked the most is their excellent chemistry.

Don't forget to watch this!

Read further *here* or *here*

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Dear Dad...

I know people said that why you have to celebrate Father's Day?Everyday is a father's day.
I do agree with that yet Father's day is a day whereby we can celebrate it with our dad. The day where we celebrate for them for being a father.

For this year Father's day, I am still away from home. Yup, for my study.
I just want to wish my father, Happy Father's Day and thanks for being such an awesome dad!

This song is the song that I love the most. I give it for my dad for this special day. :))

Monday, June 11, 2012

Lift me up

This is what I always do.When I'm down and I almost give up(I won't),I will look up for this kind of picture with message like this. I do pray and I do looked at this picture.

It is so pretty isn't it?

The hormones

One moment I will feel so sad.Later,I will feel happy.Then,sad again.
I don't know.Perhaps this is just my hormones trying to play with me.It's really hard to control but I'm trying my best.

Today,like usual.Industrial training,until August.I don't know how should I put my words but for almost 3 weeks I've been doing my industrial training,it's just okay.My supervisor do gave me way too much works but nevermind because I know it's for my own good later.

I just can wait to be a working women so that I can earn money. I need it to support my family and I ;( and I know it depends on luck. If Lord give me work,I will accept it with an open heart.

My eye candy #3 Sam Tsui

Another talent here.He has a good package though.He's good looking,can paint,he can play piano and he can sing well.Oh my!
I am currently listening to all of his product. His asset is his look and mostly his voice.He has this clear voice.
I think I really liked this one. I can say that his version is much better than the original.

Credit to his facebook Here and 

Thursday, May 31, 2012

The blessings

I'm grateful St.Therese.Thank you Lord.I am far away from my comfort zone but that's okay because I've learnt new things in life.

Friday, May 25, 2012

I don't know

..what should I do.Things getting complicated here and there.I'm tired,confused,sensitive,sad and many more. I don't know. It's just because of the hormones or is it because to do industrial training is pretty stressful?

This is the things that I have to do frequently:

Wednesday, May 9, 2012


Eventhough I'm on my semester break, I find it so hectic. Will be back Miri this Sunday. On Tuesday, will start doing the Industrial Training. Excited and nervous too because I don't know what to expect.

~Thinking of my parents making me strong.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

The Papers

Safe Work Procedure paper:

 Didn't do well. The question looked so EASY, but I find it hard to recall it. I cannot remember everything I've learnt but I'm glad I can always rely on my logical side. I answered it all based on my logic understanding. 

Emergency Response Planning: 

Yay!Am done with it just few hours ago. I'm glad I did much better than yesterday but there are some  of the little things that I cannot remember. Nevermind, as long as I can answer all question. It's a habit to never leave a blank space in the paper. Mum said "as long as you answered everything eventhough it's not a right answer but at least you're trying your best."

2 done, 3 to go~

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Proud to be Malaysian

..because this is product made by malaysian. Awesome!

Wish me luck

...for my finals, okay? I'm going to start doing revision today. Exam is tomorrow( Monday) and I suddenly have the mood to study :). During study week, what did I do? I do NOTHING except sleeping,eating,sleeping,eating...during the entire time. I don't know why but seems like my mind and body still tired from the hectic schedule in College( excuses?;p) Also, the weather is helping me too during my hibernation because it is raining everyday and during the night it's even colder ( raining during I'm typing)

So, that's what my activity. I also didn't have the mojo to blogging but when it comes watching korean dramas, I have the mood. 

Note to self: Good luck with the exam and all the best. (Aiming 4.00 this semester (;)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

My Eye Candy: #2 Julien Kang

                        Source: Julian Kang's twitter

Watched running man ep 89 and suddenly Julien appeared. Quite handsome and manly too. Can't wait to watch the High Kick 3.

My Eye Candy: Leo Mccormick

My eye candy. Stumbled upon some website while searching for someone ;)
He's pretty cute, right? ;)

Friday, April 6, 2012

Yesterday and today #2

Yesterday: Holy Thursday


Today: Good Friday

Allow our desires for our particular taste in beauty to be placed in the scales with the scandal of the crucified and give more time to utterly silent prayer.

Have a blessed Good Friday everyone who celebrate Easter  today. I'm pretty sad because I cannot participate in it actively for the past 2 years. Forgive me Lord.

"We adore you, O Christ, and we praise you, because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world."

Want to watch this but...

I still have to study for my exam and prepare myself for next week presentations TT

Just for laugh?

I've been watching this just now. Pretty entertaining.

and like usual, I cannot stop myself from watching them :) Both of them are so funny and cute too!

Procrastination week

This week I only have 3 classes out of 5 and it gave me the freedom to lazying around while I still have tons of stuff to be done. Am stress and that's why I procrastinate more. Sleeping timetable is messed up this month. Holy week this week which I didn't have a chance to participate. How do you expect me to go to the Church when I have no transportation at all. Besides, it is located 20 minutes from my rented house. Sorry Lord. I'm a sinner.

So, instead of doing research for my group presentations which are on Thursday and Friday next week, I do other things. Never-mind tho, because I know if I'm stress, I cannot do anything.

p/s my Bro just came inside my room and told me that one of our friend think his eyes is not that awesome anymore and remind me again, and again that I should take a good care of my eyes too ;))

I know this picture is not related to my story at all but I put it coz i liked this picture oaky :D

Monday, April 2, 2012

Stop abortion

I wonder why there's some women's out there who choose to abort their unborn baby when they are some women's who are willing to ignore their ownself in order to save the lives of their unborn babies. Taking an example, Jennifer Lake who sacrificed herself for the love of his son. Her brave decision that delivered a clear message on how a mother's love. I hope that women who's consideing on going to an abortion should read her story. Please avoid abortion. There are many peoples out there who're trying to save their unborn baby and why opt for abortion?Please stop.

Read her amazing story *here*

Souce: Jenni's Journey Facebook

This is another an eye- opener for me on how great is our God, the miracle that had happened to this family. Miracle mum brings premature baby son back to life with two hours of loving cuddles after doctors pronounce him dead

3 weeks to go..

before the end of my 6th Semester. This 3 weeks is the most important time left for me to change my exam result. I'm going to start my revision starting today. It's not going to be easy considering the fact that I have 5 subjects this semester. Safe Work Procedure, Emergency Response Plan, Office English, Machinery Safety and Occupational Stress please be good to me :D I'm not going to do the last minute revision anymore like what I used to do for the 5 Semesters. Although I passed with flying colours in my finals but I'm not really happy with it. It's not that I'm not grateful with that, I find it a blessing from God. It's just that I think that the cramming is not a good thing. I have been thinking a lot lately. What is the purpose of taking my Diploma in Safety and Health? Am I just want to pass the exam or it's because of the education itself( knowledge) ? I promise myself that I'm going to achieve both. I'm going to have a good result in my finals. Also, to obtain an appropriate knowledge and an adequate education for my safety and health industry. I want to be a competent Safety and Health Officer. 

I find it soothing

I am in the state where listening to Daniel Powter's songs can simply lift my mood. I know this songs is kinda old but it's fine because I like it.

Love You Lately

Free Loop

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Yesterday and today

Yesterday was 31st March 2012 which is the Earth Hour. Do I supporting it? Sorry to say, but I don't. Still remember when the past years, where I worked as the service assistant( F&B department) at this restaurant in Kinabalu Park. The whole restaurant were all dark and all of us only using a candle for 1 hour. Isn't that great? All the restaurant customer which almost 90% of them are the foreigners. They were amazed. I think there only 1 light available. I still remember hugging one of the baby belongs to one of the foreigner. I think I need to help the baby's mum since she's cannot enjoy her meal because she need to hold his son. I'm glad I was able to help her.

Today is the April Fool the day when I really hate especially during my school days. It's just something that is annoying especially the fact when people were up to something that is really over limit. I'm glad I didn't experience something that really awful during April Fool. I still remember when I am in the high school, one of my classmate said that one of the discipline teacher want to meet me and without realising it was the April Fool day, I went to that teacher. I'm glad that they were able to stopped me before I will be embarrassing myself. The only thing I remembered after that is that my classmates were laughing. That's it. I'm glad that today, in my College years it happen to be on Sunday. So, nothing happened.

Going to watch running man: the Ha Ji Won and Han Ga In episodes. Good night :))

Saturday, March 31, 2012

In which my bro and I shopping for books :)

Went to Popular Book store, Bintang Plaza with my Bro and 2other friends@ housemate today to finish up the balance of the Voucher. My Bro and I has spent the MYR150 last month and since today is the last date before it's due date which is today. Yeah, kinda last minute. The good thing is that my MARA loan is making it's way to my bank account. I love how efficient they worked. The money will be available every 1st day of the month. They never banking it later than that date. Okay, back to the story.

You know when there's too much books available but the voucher left is only MYR 50 so we need to choose wisely. My Bro especially having a hard time to choose his book. He want to buy the  buy " Chicken book for teenage soul" but he said it was sold out. To find men who like to read novel is quite rare. Same goes to my Bro. He's the one who didn't like the love story novel. He prefer the non- fiction book. So, he managed buy two books which are:

Meanwhile , I get this for myself. I want the " The girl with the tattoo book" but at the end I pick these book. I want the Stephen King book, Cecilia Ahern and Jodi Picoult but you know why right? I didn't have enough money. hehe. Note the 50% rebate? The  "Weird Sisters" cost is MYR 39.95 while  More Like Her" book cost is MYR 31. 90. I suppose to pay almost MYR 70++ right? but after the rebate, I paid MYR 55. 90. They take the lowest price between both of the books and the pricier book will be discounted and my second book is only cost me MYR 15. 95.  Make sure both of the book have the same 50% logo at the cover page. I know. Cheapskate right? :D I don't care because it makes me happy!

I'm feeling slightly relaxed~

Just submit 2 of my assignments today. In 2 weeks time, I will have 2 presentation. I can't wait to go back home.

Today, I will go to the Bintang Plaza to finish off my book voucher.

Since I have no assignment left, I will spending my time by watching all the k pop thingy again. I know the exploration of the human body ( Super Junior) is kinda old but I never watch it before and I still find it interesting. My college classmates and I have been exchanging the films and the Korean variety show. It is fun but beware of the virus okay. Externals/ hard discs is parked on my table today while I'm in class. Next week, there is still one externals left. That's how the student getting the latest film. 

Friday, March 30, 2012

My last minute solution

I'm so depressed. Yeah, it's the last minute assignment and the presentation again. For the 6th semester I'm still doing the same habit. I'm glad actually to do this last minute actually because when I will do it with a full concentration and I can do it much better. I know this is weird but I like it. This is my way to survive for the past 5 semester and I survived okay!hahaa.Considered my lucky.

btw, I'm so stress today and I'm splashed it to one of my classmate. I hate it when she's loud in the library when I really need to focus. I hate the fact that I did it to her. Haish

Monday, March 26, 2012

Full concentration..

..will be given from me for the precious time left. Precious time which mean "the only time left for me" to finish up all my assignments before it's submission date(this Friday) and prepare the 3 presentation slides.

Now, listening to my classmates who're now presenting something. Ahakz. I'm on their shoes last week. Doing the presentation. Cold sweat.

I want to touch the water eventhough it is just a plain salt water. But look at the colour~
Exams Worries & Woes?? 

Before the exams: 
Im worried for this particular subject/topic! 
Philippians 4:6-7 
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer 
and supplication, with thanks giving, let your 
requests be made known to God; and the peace of 
God which surpasses all understanding, will guard 
your heart and minds through Jesus Christ. 

My mind cannot concentrate during revision 
Isaiah 26:4 
You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is 
stayed on You, because he trusts in You. 

I cannot sleep peacefully nowadays. 
Psalms 3:5 
I lay down and sleptfor the Lord sustained me. 

Im physically and mentally fatigue. 
Isaiah 40:31 
But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew 
their strength; They shall mount up with wings like 
eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall 
walk and not faint. 

Theres no hope for Im too far behind to catch up! 
Psalms 43:5 
Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are 
you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall 
yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and 
my God. 

During the exams: 
I dont understand whats this question all about! 
Proverbs 3:5-6 
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not 
on your own understanding, in all your ways 
acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. 

I am too nervous to think properly! 
John 14:27 
Peace, I leave with you, My peace I give to you; 
not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not 
your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

This question needs much wisdom and I dont have 
James 1:5 
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God 
who gives all liberally and without reproach and it 
will be given to him. 

After exams: 
What will my results be like??? 
Psalms 37:4 
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give 
you the desires of your heart. 

Does God care, if I fail? 
1 Peter 5:7 
Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for 

Bad Day?

Right after I post my last post, something happen.

My carpet in my room is wet because of my water bottle is broken and all the water is splash all over the place. I didn't see it because it was at the end of my table. I'm so mad at my self because I am so careless. It is my second bottle afterall. My first bottle is broke when it slipped from my hand while I'm on my way from the college stairs and again, water is all over the place.

Then, my brother is rubbing salt over my wound @ adding to my moody day by kept talking and asking where am I going to do my practical. Why he need to ask when I already told him earlier my choice. He even said that I shouldn't be choosy. He even said many more sarcastically.

I'm pissed off now.

p/s Gonna start doing my assignment at 6am
I have 3 presentations and 2 assignments to go. The due date is on this Friday and I have 4 days to do both of the assignments.

Why I didn't start to move my arse off this chair and start to do it??
I'm in the lazy mode okay.
I'm not in the mood to do it.
Oh well. When will I have the mood?
I don't know and I'm not sure yet.

I have to do 1 presentation this Wednesday and I still didn't prepare anything. I haven't start searching for the material too.

I'm so gonna die!TT

Sunday, March 25, 2012

messed up my sleeping time.
Actually time management to be frank.

Korean Drama #7: I'm a flower, too

Now watching this. It is such a good drama and funny too. I think Lee Ji Ah is pretty to despite all of her gossip, I will still like her.

Looks like I'm free, right? I'm not okay. Watching korean drama is my way to reduce the level if my stress. Yes, excuses again. Actually, I still have 2 assignments and 3 presentation to go.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

No matter how hard the trial, I should face it with the strength from God

*This post going to be a very SENSITIVE post. So like it or not, you have the right to NOT read it*

My grandparents( mum side) is both a Catholic. My grandma is grown up in a Catholic whereby my grandfather is used to be a Muslim but then he converted to a Catholic. Under some circumstances, he's back to his original religion after being a Catholic for almost 20 years.

My grandparents( dad side) is both raised in a Catholic family but it's just that they're not living as a Catholic. They tend to have their own beliefs and their own customs from the past generation. 

When I'm small, I realised how my parents didn't really making God as their priority. They do pray but not as often as it should be. My dad is busy with his work so the time he spent in the church is really limited. My siblings and I can choose whether we want to go to church or not but as we grew older, my parents always reminded us about Him.Maybe, it's because of their past environment that my parents grew up with, become a great influenced for them to not become a good Catholic BUT it is all in the past.

Now, my parents changed. So, do my siblings and I. This is all thanks to the trials and temptations that we've faced for this past few years. The pain is TOO great that we don't know what we should do and we ended up believing that God will always be by our side. Turned out, it is true. My family and I managed to face it all with the strength from Him. All he want is the FAITH. The simple faith.
Still, there are the problems and seems like it's even painful and greater than it was before but it's okay because we knew that God is working on something for us. At least, we know that God is going to be with us. 

I believe that God is always hearing my family and I prayers. Maybe the prayers will not gonna be answered on that moment but just wait because God know the reason why did he do that. Just have faith in Him.

My family and I are now working hard to be a good Catholic. To be a good children for Him. To be a better and holy person. 

Lord, have mercy on us.



Friday, March 23, 2012

Korean Drama #5: Glowing She #6: Operation Proposal

I'm currently watching both of this dramas and now I'm still waiting for the drama in the website so that I would be able to download the current drama.

Glowing She

I don't know how to rate this drama. This is a good drama but the progress in each episode is too slow that I'm getting bored and keep fast forwarding it. # *read more* So, you can guess how is it right? Anyhow, I will keep watching this drama because at least I can watch something. I mean I have an entertainment at least.

Operation Proposal

Operation Proposal 

I'm getting impatient while watching this drama because of the lead actor characteristics( Kang Baek Ho). It's just pissed me off to see Kang Baek Ho( Yoo Seung Ho) attitude for Yi seul( Park Eun Bin). Can't wait to watch the entire episode. I hope it will be a good ending :)) *read more*

Thursday, March 22, 2012

The Simple Gesture that...

...makes my heart melt.

Last night, after my night class ended, my classmate that used to send me back home is going home early and I have no choice but to ride my classmate( Roy) car. I've been rarely riding his car. They're 4 of us in the car and I am the only female. Then, when we reached my house, Roy suddenly rushed to open my door. I said it's okay but he insisted to do so. Actually, the door is broken and cannot be open from the inside but still there are another exit. Yet, he still offering himself to open the car's door.

He's younger than me but he is so matured. Isn't he so gentleman? No one ever do that to me. Even the guy that used to liked me before. His name is Jasni. He once fetch me from my house to the workplace where I used to work as a part timer. He didn't even bother to open the car's door for me. He is 28 years old that time.

See? Big difference right?

I think if I'm going to have a future boyfriend @ husband, I want someone that has Roy's quality too. As long as he is matured and can use think based on his common sense, that should be fine.

p/s Mentally and physically tired but I will still have a hectic week ahead. Good Mornight!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

The Mr. KnowItALL

During my presentation last night, I mean while I was presenting, there is this man@ sissy man who've seated at the front seat of the class. It is the closest seat from where I've stand during the whole time of presentation.

While I delivering my words, this Mr.KnowItALL   suddenly laugh and you could see the smirk on his face. Luckily, I was too pre- occupied with my presentation that it didn't have much effect on me.

Funny, how Mr. KnowItALL , who I thought is a good guy before, could turn out to be a *monkey*
It's weird.
Eventhough you're jealous with what I've achieved you shouldn't do that!
Eventhough you hate me, you shouldn't disturb me on that moment!

I don't know someone who're so "genius" like you could turned to someone who's low as the monkey.
You want to ruined my presentation and messed it up?

I'm not going to let you do so!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Time is ticking..

..time is ticking, TICKING.

Have you ever been in this situation where 24 hours seems not enough. I don't know why I felt so but it's just that to even ironing my laundry, I think it will waste my precious time. I even deducted my sleep duration because of this feeling.

Now, I'm studying and reading all of the book for my presentation tomorrow which is the Safe Work Procedure. On Tuesday, I will have another presentation, which is the Office English. Wish me luck for both of my presentations this week. It's my final year so I will do my best but at the same time, I'm not going to put too much burden for myself because at the end it will always me who'll be depressed.

Take care,you.

Korean Drama #4: Flower Boy Ramyun Shop pt.1

I'm done watching this drama. I think this is a good romantic comedy drama because when I'm watching this, there are times where I will laughing all by myself. The story is really unexpected because when there's a romantic part, and I'm really into it suddenly it's not. I'm having so much fun watching it tho'. 

Note the pictures edited with a animation below and while watching it, you'll sometime will heard additional sounds. I find it cute!

 The type of ramyun cooked in this drama. I'm salivating while watching it and without realising, I'm eating ramyun too while watching it :)

Sujebi( Flour dough dumplings)

Steamed egg ramyun

You can read the preview *here*

Saturday, March 17, 2012

My Plain Saturday

Good Morning?
It is really ODD for me to said "Good Morning" because of the fact that I'm not a morning person.
How did I managed to do it? Of course, I'm pulling an all niter again. Gonna sleep at 5:00pm later on because I need to watch all my movie collections which is stored in my lappy.

Just done doing my laundry for the entire clothes for this week. I just didn't have time to do it on the weekdays because I'm having a night class and I only slept in the morning so I'll be able to gain some energy. I didn't wash and hang my clothes outside because I'm afraid when I sleep, it will rain. So, I've made a decision not to do my laundry for the entire week. My laundry is now drying up not really nicely because the Mr. Sun is not coming out yet but at least it will still drying. Please don't rain today.

So, today all I do is watching movie, eating and sleeping. I'm not going anywhere or somewhere. This is how I spent my Saturday which is PLAIN. Why? I hate to walk or to do sightseeing at the mall because I only have little money so, I have to prevent myself from spending that little money left.


Friday, March 16, 2012

Insulted in a good way and...

...it's pretty good for myself too.

Last Wednesday, I've attended my Occupational Stress and the class was just fine until suddenly the lecturer asked something to "us". He asked about the past lesson or the past semester matters and how on earth I cannot even answered him. I'm ashamed that I cannot even lift my head during the whole time. The lecturer frequently reminded the whole class that we're the final year students who're going to graduate this year and going to be release in the work environment next year.

I'm ashamed about the fact that I am the final year student, who didn't remember about the past 2 years lessons. I'm ashamed that I'm going to graduate this year yet I feel like my education level is not up to that "standard/ level" yet. I'm going to study like there's no tomorrow and keep learning.

I'm currently on my 6th semester and I only have 1 semester left. I'm going to look at the first semester lecture's notes and start to learn everything back again.

p/s Wish me luck (:

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Baby Love, you light my world ;)

Korean Drama #3: Bad Couple


I know this is pretty old but I still watched it anyway. This is a story about an independent working women, who's single and she want to be a mother without a marriage( Miss. Mom). Finally, she met a man who she's claimed having the Korean best sperm which is so funny and that's how the story goes. The story line is okay and I think it's just the ending that left me feeling a bit unsatisfied.

This story reminds me of my future dream, which is sounds like her. The difference is I won't sleep with men just to get his sperm especially when I'm unmarried. I want to have the test tube baby but I know it is impossible because the hospital won't let it happen for unmarried woman.

Why unmarried? Sometimes, just thinking about marriage making me feeling uneasy. The commitment. Now, I think I need to change my dreams to something better. God's will, I think I'm going to adopt as many child as I can and giving/helping them especially in the education.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

My faith

I'm going to be more faithful.
Thank you, Lord, St. Therese, Mother Mary and the Holy Spirit for the prayer answered.
I'm grateful to received it even-though I'm not worth it.
Thanks for making me believe that everything I ask, I should believe that I'm going to receive.
I'm sorry for being to thoughtless all this time.
Just realize that all you want is the faith.
To believe in Him no matter how hard life is treating me.
To trust Him and to keep praying even-though I don't feel like one.
To give it all to Him and let Him take care of it for me.
The faith that He always want from His child.

Monday, March 12, 2012

In Which The Message I see is Clear..

....eventhough it is just a 5 min clip. It's really good to watch something like this rather than wasting my time playing games. At least I can learn something, or I can digest the message and learn to be a better person. Learn to appreciate my life more rather than just complaining about my problems. Other people too have their own problems. The most important thing is just " Don't compare your life with others, you have no idea what their journey is all about." I'm pretty determined to see the bright side in every dark side I will face later on. Nope, I'm not asking for it but just preparing my self mentally. 

Peace and out (:

Sunday, March 11, 2012


<Brian Joo: To Let This Die>

< Big Bang: Blue>

<IU: You & I>

<FT Island: Severely & Be My Girl> 

<Teen Top: Crazy>

<My Name: Message>

<Tara: Lovey Dovey>

I Wonder How My Parents....

taking care of my siblings and I when we're sick. They're both working and I still remember that one of them( either my mum or dad) will take 1 or 2 days off just to taking care of us.

Now, I'm having flu, fever and sore throat and I'm far away from home. I don't know what should I do. I mean I don't really know how to taking care of myself. If I'm home, my parents will make sure that they will put the warm cloth on my fore head to reduce the heat. Also, cooking chicken porridge or Chinese herbs and making me eat all the medication on time. I just don't know. I'm felt really weak right now to do all everything. I want my parents to be by my side( which is pretty impossible).

I only make sure that I'm drinking lot of warm water, having more sleep and eating more.


Saturday, March 10, 2012

#nowlisteningto: I Won't Give Up

The Day When I Suddenly...

...thinking like a matured women. erkkk..female? hmn, I'm not really sure how should I categorised my self as I'm 23 years old this year.

As I look upon the sky today, there are lot of stars and even a big round full moon. Suddenly, I thought, if only I could grab the star? I'm curious, you know and it's been such a long time after I've been this curious. Maybe I just have to marry an astronaut right if I want to learn anything about the stars and such but I think it would be REALLY impossible. 

 Thinking of my future. My family, my siblings, marriage, children and my own dreams. I wonder if my dreams could be achieve? I believe my future didn't based on luck but persistent and courage. I really hope so that everything will go well. I really want to be a good daughter, a good sisters and especially a good child of God. 

Thank you, Lord for all the blessings.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Note To Self: Please...please...

...stop procrastinating and start to do your assignment now. The due date is tomorrow hence you still doing useless thing. Please, stop wasting your precious time. Do your assignment now so you could have your sleep on 5am.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Those Eyes...

..that was glaring at me while I was laughing with my new friends. Funny, is it jealousy? So funny. Why they didn't become friendly themselves? Why need to look at me with that eyes? Never mind, it's Lent anyway and it's not my eyes who've judging me.

P/s That person doesn't deserve my attention. Me, on the other hand deserve better :))

Monday, March 5, 2012

My 6th Semester

How is it going?

As you know, I really hate group assignment especially when your group members didn't even care about the assignment. Where you got the law, the group leader supposed to the all the work and the members got the marks. Free marks they got without doing anything. I'm tired. I'm tired doing it alone. I don't know where should I share the burden? Should I share it to the group members who doesn't even give a fuck about the assignment?

Friday, March 2, 2012

Bad or Good situations, it's a blessing from Him~

Lent seasons, I think is the most challenging period for me. I don't know if it only me I do find it challenging. The temptations are 2 times tempting so I have to be strong to resist it all.

Last night, I have been scolding someone because she didn't co- operate with me. I'm almost explode but I don't and I think I still show the sign of anger to that person. After what happened, I began to regret it. It's lent but I cannot even holding the anger for the sake of this lent season. Realize it now and am not going to let it happen any more.

FYI, last night also something good happened. My bro, friend and I used to buy snacks, drinks, chicken skewers and the various  kind of fritters  at this one market that is only open on Thursday until Saturday from 14:00 until 22:30. So last night we went to this one stall. They sell the most delicious snacks and cakes too. I said I want to buy that is worth MYR 2.00 and I can get 6 pieces of them. Suddenly, the auntie putting all the things left in the containers to my plastics and said that the rest is free. She's been giving the other leftover for the different kind of cakes too and it's worth more that MYR 10.00 o_O. That was really kind of her. She even asked my friend who'd just arrive at her stall( he's on his way to buy some too) and the auntie said "you want it?I give it for free" and my friend said "sure!". We're so full that we cannot finished it all and now it was in the fridge. The auntie is so nice.

It's feels so good and I think it's a blessings from God. The auntie like having this instinct that my friends and I are coming from another state and maybe she think we're pitiful too. I'm not sure but I'm really grateful and I hope she will be blessed for doing a good deeds. I hope her business will go well too. May God bless her and her family. Amen.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The cat touch her very gently xD

Cuteness overload!
Look at the 0:12
It's like "hey,pat me.Pat me"