Managing my own money

It's not that I hate math. I do love this subject but when it comes to managing my own money with my own style, I find it really hard. For this past years, my mum is the one who will help me to manage my money, how much should I spent on my food, house rent, college fees etc..but now that I'm 22 years old, I think it's the right moment for me to start managing my own finance.

My Family Matters

I have 1 older sister which is now 30 years old, 2 older brothers aged 25 & 24 years old, 1 younger sister which is 20 years old and here am I, 22 years old. So, basically I have 5 sibling and I'm the 4th. Growing up in that "big" family, there's a lot of personality you can see in my family. Both of my sisters don't want to tense up with all of the problems. They want to live their life with less problems/ no problems at all. So, if my parents have a problem, they will be the one who will run away. My 2nd brother, he's quite okay with it. He can tolerate with the family problem while my other brother is not really good in handling problems. He cannot stand with the tense & awkward situations. In the end, it was me. What me? It was me who need to be someone who will be hearing all of my family problems. It will always be me who will be giving my opinion to both of my parents. Sometimes, I wonder how can I be patient & strong enough to face with it. Sometimes, eventho I'm crying inside of my heart, I cannot show it up because I need to be strong so that my parents will always think that they can count on me. Maybe it's my talent. To heard the problems, to solve it, to give my honest opinion and so on.

Today, at 7am my mum called me. I know my parents argue with each other again but it was surely not a serious matter at all because I knew tomorrow or the day after tomorrow things will get better again. Things will be back like usual. My mum of course will tell me every details about it. I know for some of you, sharing the problems with your children is not good at all but for me, I don't mind. I really want to share their burden. I want to lessen their problems. At 9pm, my dad called but for sure he will not tell me anything and he will talk as if nothing happened. Sometimes, I felt funny. I don't know why.  But that's what family all about right? After all they are my beloved family.

Semester break my own way

After spending almost 1month plus 2 weeks of my own added holiday, now I'm back to college. urghh..boleh buat cuti sendiri? of course boleh, as long as you need to be mentally prepared when you're going back to college because the lesson is already started for 2 weeks already. So, now, I need to catch back everything that I missed especially the lecture's notes and luckily my classmates saves it for my bro and I..

Why we were extending my semester break? Because my Bro & I felt like the 1month break given by the college is not enough for us. That's the 1st reason. Then, my Bro need to wait for his new identity card that will take almost 1month to be done and me? of course because I need to get treated for my Hyperthyroid. At first, my parents didn't agree with us but after convincing them with our past semester results, we managed to have our extra 2 weeks.yay.

What I do during the whole semester break? I spent it with my beloved family. I will follow them wherever the go since I cannot bear the thought of being far from them. I started to appreciate my parents home-cooked meals and I ate like there will be no tomorrow. It shows by my 7KG weight gain. Yes, you heard me. When I'm going back to my hometown,my weight is 58 KG and after all of those "holidaying" my weight is now 65KG. I don't care about my weight anymore because I know I will loss it back when I'm away from them for this 2 months.

Arghh, it's only been 28hours since I left home but I started to miss them all at home. I know they feel the same too.

~2months to go before I can go back home"(

 

Why? I should appreciate myself more...there is no such thing as losing =)
Its time to be thankful for what i have in life. No more looking down on myself and i hope God will bless people who are less fortunate..

Am Bored

 I know, I should start doing my revision right now since it's a study week this week but seems like I still don't have the urge to do so. Actually, Imma start doing my revision today but I ended up doing a spring cleaning for my room and the moment I want to study, I'm feeling tired already.  So, I think I'm going to start tomorrow. No procrastination.

I ended up browsing though this quiz and I did it just for fun before Imma off to bed. Can you spot the "blue words?" I think it's reflects on myself a bit ;)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

 

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

 

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

 

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

 

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

 

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

 

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

 

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

 

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

This video's never fails to make me happy & impressed.

Thanks be to God!! Things are getting better, praise the Lord. =)

There are times when things really get worse. Sometimes, I'll be asking God, "will things get better, Lord?" and of course God, You didn't answer straight away. You probably want me to grow right, God? Grow in terms of faith, trust and hope. When You didn't grant me what I want, I'll be frustrated and feeling down, but I know, You're giving me the best. Now, after a few months of confusions, anger, tiredness and Etc. my wish was granted and it was much better than my plan. Am grateful Lord for this blessings. Thanks be to God.